ERIC'S POV
*FLASHBACK*
"Today I will NOT get to my head. Today I will NOT let my moms death hurt me. Today I won't break down, I will stand strong. I won't fall or crumble. I won't let myself cut. I will STAY strong... For Jake. I won't cry. I will smile, and be happy. I will NOT let my little fear of accidently telling Jake that I love him ruin my friendship... NO... He's my best friend and I'm gonna treat him like my fucking best friend!" I looked into the mirror and repeated that over and over and over again this morning... Though... I don't think it worked. I still haven't really talked to him
.. I haven't ignored him, but I haven't said anything to him. He hasn't said anything to me, but, I swear he was about to grab my hand when I nudged him on the elbow in Biology. It was like he clutched his hand into a fist to keep from holding my hand... Probably not... It's just my hopes and dreams... There's no way he would do that...
*END FLASHBACK*
JAKE'S POV
*FLASHBACK*
"He'll talk to me today... I know he will." I told myself that over, and over again this morning... And it was partially right... He hung around me... But he never spoke... While we were in Biology I had to clutch my hand to keep from grabbing onto his... I hope he didn't notice.. It would give me away completly...
Then he would confront me about it and I would have to tell him... Then he would probably kick me, or punch me and never speak to me again... "OH NO... WHAT IF HE'S NOT TALKING TO ME BECAUSE HE ALEADY KNOWS!!!" I screamed into my mirror, running my hands through my hair... I stared at my reflection... Then I did the unthinkable... I punched the mirror with all my might.
"What is is he doesn't see in me?! Why aren't I good enough for him?! Can't he tell I fucking love him?!!? Doesn't he see the way I look at him?! The way I get all nervous when he's around?! The way I blush.. A LOT when he says something?! I make it so fucking OBVIOUS!! Why can't he see it!?!"
I sat down clutching my bleeding hand... and cried...
*END OF FLASHBACK*
ERIC'S POV
I snuggled closer to Jake when his alarm clock went off... We had fallen asleep watching movies and talking... He had his arms wrapped around my waist and mine were around his neck..l. Our legs were entwined and I didn't want to move... He grumbled and threw his phone across the room making the back fly off.. I laughed and he held me closer.
"Do we have to go to school?" He grumbled.
"We-ll not if you don't want to."
"Okay, then can we just stay like this all day?"
"Of course."
"Okay." He pulled me as close as he could and drifted off to sleep... I snuggled into his chest and breathed in his scent.. I sighed and drifted into a slumber.
*DREAMING*
I'm walking through a field... It's snowing and I'm alone... I can barely breathe... I look around but... there isn't anything but snow...
"Baby, where are you?" I hear Jake's voice call out.
"I'm over here!"
"Where? Baby I can't see anything!
"Just follow my voice!"
I looked around to see if he was comming.. He wasn't... It went silent...
"Jake?"
"Eric!!! HELP ME!!!!"
"JAKE WHERE ARE YOU!?!"
"I Don't know... I need help... I'm bleeding!!!"
"Don't worry!! I'm coming!!"
"Eric, I can't breathe.. Help...." It went silent...
"JAKE!!! JAKE!!! PLEASE BE OKAY!! JAKE!!"
*END OF DREAM*
"ERIC! WAKE UP!!!"
"Jake!" I screamed when I was shook awake..
"Baby whats wrong?" I started to cry...
"I...H-had...A... Dre-am... Wh-Where.. Y-You... D-died..." I managed to sob out.
"Baby.. I'm not dead... I'm right here... See?" He cupped my face in his hands and kissed me... "And 'm not going anywhere."
