Invisible

Chapter 23

Mackenzie's POV

It's been a week since Brandon, and I kissed. I guess I have been avoiding him all week because I am afraid to talk to him. But other than that the week has been like a routine. I would wake up, go to school, come home, my mom would beat me for doing something wrong, and then I would go to bed. When you think about it, I guess it sounds really bad, but I am used to it.

I have been noticing that my mom has been drinking a lot more lately. It scared me sometimes to think about it. I knew what she was doing was wrong, but she is my mother and I don't want to see her like this.

I didn't tell anyone about my mom hitting me. I just don't like to talk about it with anyone. My teachers have been noticing the bruises on my face and have confronted me about it, but I just lie and say I ran into a door.

The bell rang for lunch, but this past week I haven't been going. I've been going to the library to eat my lunch. I know it sounds sad, but I actually like the library. It's quite, and peaceful so I can just eat my lunch and think.

I got up, grabbed my books, and left the classroom as fast as I could. I wanted to get my lunch, and go to the library without running into Brandon.

But of course my luck runs out, he spots me, and he starts to walk towards me. Did I really think that I could avoid him forever? The truth is I wanted to, but I guess I can't avoid him now.

He quickly comes by my side, and stands in front of me so I can't open my locker. "Why have you been ignoring me?" He says, in a serious tone. "What did I do?"

"You did nothing, I just want to be alone right now." I said, as I tried to get to my locker, but he wouldn't budge. He looked like he just got hit by a train. His eyes looked tired, and heavy. Also it looks like he has lost some weight over the course of the week.

"Please Mackenzie, I'm sorry for whatever I did. I really am, just please talk to me." He pleaded, with sadness in his eyes.

"No I'm sorry, I just need some time." I said as I pushed him out of the way, and got my lunch. I have been bringing my own lunch now, so I don't have to go in to the lunch room.

I walked quickly to the library, with my head down so nobody notices me. When I get to the library, I open the door and breathe in the smell. The library has always smelled like old books, and underpaid women. Well at least that's how it smells to me.

I sat down at an empty table, and ate my lunch. My mind wandered to the moment where Brandon and I kissed. How do I know that he even liked the kiss? Maybe I was a bad kisser?

I do this all the time, I think the worst about things. The only reason I do this is because I don't want to get my hopes up, and then be disappointed. I've learned that you just have to think the worst, so you don't have to get your heart broken. Of course that kiss meant a lot to me, but it's just so difficult when you don't know if the other person feels the same way.

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"So tell me everything." She says sitting down on my bed.

So this is where I began to tell Destiny everything that has happened between me and Brandon, up to the kiss. I haven't really been talking to her, so I thought why not vent to her about Brandon? She is always good with boys, and how to deal with them.

"Oh wow. So you guys actually kissed?" She says, shocked.

"Yeah, but I haven't talked to him since." I say, as I play with the necklace that he got me.

I looked down at the necklace, and think of all the memories we shared. No one had ever given me something this meaningful before. Well except this one time when my dad gave me a charm bracelet for my birthday, but I threw it away. Once my parents divorce was official, I threw it away because I didn't want to think about my dad at the time.

"Why don't you just talk to him? What's the worst that could happen?!?" She asked, clearly confused as to why I'm avoiding him.

"I don't know why. I'm just afraid I guess, afraid of losing him." I thought over what had just came out of my mouth.

Something was in the way of us being together. Fear. Fear from telling the other person their feelings, and getting rejected. Or by simply not being ready for a relationship. But I know one thing is that every time I am with him, I fall for him even more. Maybe I'm being crazy, or delusional but I actually might have real feelings for him.

I've never been in love before, and I don't know what it feels like. Of course I've had my fare share of boyfriends, but I never loved them. I didn't even know what love was then, but maybe I do now. But who knows maybe that kiss was a mistake. What if he doesn't like me the way I like him? I guess only time will tell.

But to think it's only been a couple weeks, and Brandon and I kissed. Was it too soon? Or was it too late? To be honest I think that Brandon could get any girl that he wanted. I don't know why he's hanging out with me of all people, but whatever.

"Oh don't say that. Come on Mack, don't you see? Brandon really cares for you. He doesn't want to see you get hurt, trust me on this one." She put her hand on top of mine, and smiled at me.

I smiled back at her, and hugged her. "Thank you Des, for always being here to help me." I said into her shoulder.

"No problem. Now can we go get some ice cream!" I laughed at her. She always knows how to make me feel better.

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A.N/ Hey guys! I hope you liked this chapter. It took me a long time to write it because I had to start it all over. The whole chapter deleted on me!! I was so frustrated. So if it's not the best, and if I have some mistakes in there I'm sorry. Ok well thanks for reading! Bye!