falling asleep on a stranger (josh dun)

Placebo Feelings

A/N If you haven't already, please read the last little update I posted, it will make the story a little clearer.

(Your P.O.V)
It was about 2 AM now, I was sleeping beside Josh when I felt his warm presence leave. I turned to see him walking down the hallway and going into a bathroom. Everyone else was already asleep, we still had about 6 hours left. I was already regretting my decision to join Tyler on stage. I blew a piece of faded blue hair out of my face.
It was faded.
Maybe I should dye it before the show tonight. I looked at the strand, what colour?? I liked cool colours, I've always been fascinated by the ocean. The four elements have always been my favourite. Fire, wind, earth and water.
It inspired a lot of my drawings. All natural disasters, the wonders of the world were all so amazing. I was considered a nerd for liking it, but I had one person that liked it too, her name was AJ. (that's meeee) she was one of the only people who would hangout with me. But she had a life, and we grew apart. She liked twenty one pilots also, she hadn't known them for as long as I had, but, pretty close. I kinda missed her. I wonder what she would think of me now, a few years later and I'm on tour with them, sleeping with the drummer.
Where was Josh? I thought. It's been almost 20 minutes.
I got up to find him.

I walked past the bathrooms and they were both unlocked,
I whispered to myself "Where could he b-"
A strong hand gripped my arm and I was pulled into one of the bathrooms and pushed against the now locked door.
I squeaked.
Josh was staring at me, his face still looked a bit sleepy.
"Josh what the fuck are you doing?" I whisper-yelled. He just smiled.
"Come back and go to sleep, everyone else is." I begged
He shut me up by pressing his lips to mine. I was startled but melted into the kiss. I don't know what the hell he was doing, but I wasn't complaining.
He grabbed my butt and I tensed, my eyes wide "hey!" I mumbled into the kiss.
"Jump." He whispered
I did as told and he wrapped my legs around his torso, Pushing me flat onto the wall.
"Jo-osh... P-people are sleep..ing" I stuttered, nervous if we got caught, and stunned from the pleasure.
"Mhmm." He replied, and continued kissing me. I wasn't winning this with reason.
Fuck it, I tangled my hands in his hair and kissed him back forcefully. He squeezed my butt and I gasped, he slid his tongue in, fighting for dominance with mine. He won quite quickly. He knew some tricks, goddamn. My nails were grazing his back. When we heard footsteps coming past the door. I dropped my legs and arms and just stared at Josh, both of us panting from the adrenaline rush. We stared at each other in slight panic, until I broke out into a laugh. Josh following seconds after. "I don't know what the hell just happened.. But holy fuck." I said through muffled laughs.
"Holy fuck is right." He said a bit more seductive now. He looked me up and down and bit his lip. I cast my gaze downward.
What did he see? He probably just wants to fuck, and leave... Maybe fame changed him. He put one arm beside me on the wall and the other under my chin. I tried not to look at him.
"Awe baby, what's wrong?" He asked me
I shook my head still not looking at him.
"Y/N please look at me, did I hurt you? Did I do something wrong." He asked, clearly worried.
I looked at him and tried to say no, but no sound came out, I only mouthed the word. I bit my lip to hold back tears.
He focused his eyes on mine.
"Y/N, baby." He pleaded.
I took a deep breath,
"You can do better. Look at you, compared to me. You have millions of girls that are prettier, smarter, and not as annoying as I am. You could have your pick of any one. You shouldn't have to settle for me. I've fallen so hard for you and I-" I stopped myself and broke eye contact again. I was pulled into a warm hug. I awkwardly hugged back.
He pulled away and held my arms in place. He had a sad look on his face,
This is it, this is where the truth comes out. I prepped my heart for the words that were about to break it.
He didn't look at me either.

"Y/N I- I don't want them, I want you." He looked up at me again.
"You're the most stunning, brilliant and amazing woman I've ever known. You think so lowly of yourself and it hurts me..
I don't care how many times I have to say it... I'll say it until it's planted in your brain and you believe it." He paused
"You're perfect... And I love you more than words could describe."
My mouth hung open slightly but I couldn't put together the emotions I was feeling, I was shocked my heart was fast and my breathing was increasing, I knew I was happy, but I felt numb. Maybe all of the emotions were too much for my heart to handle. I grabbed the collar of Josh's shirt and pulled him in for a long kiss full of too many emotions.
He broke the kiss and looked at me.
"Don't ever think about yourself like that. You could never be more wrong." He walked us out and back to our seats. He fell asleep but I was still in shock, and was smiling to myself like a fool until I fell asleep again as well.