Ice Cold | ✓

karma 002

I don't think there are any tears in my body left for me to spill, as I watch the girl in his arms reach up to his face and kiss him. The saddest part was, as I watched, James reached down and kissed her back.

I let out a gasp, and James turned around, the shock evident on his face. "Bea," He started, but I cut him off.

"Don't" I said, and I hated that my voice cracked. Hated that I was on the verge of tears. But most of all, I hated how I was so weak to fall back in love with him in such less time. How could I have been so stupid.

I ran out the door as fast as I could and down the stairs. "Bea!" I heard James shout behind me, but I didn't stop. I kept running, until I got down the stairs and looked back. There he was, James, and he looked hurt, broken almost.

A tear fell down my face, and I hated that I couldn't stop it. But most of all I hated him. James. How could he do that to me.

A hand landed on my shoulder and spun me around and there he was, someone who I had missed. Someone who loved me but I had been too blind in love to see it. He had been right there the entire time, when James hadn't. I was stupid to be realizing it in a time like this, but maybe, just maybe, me and Jack had been through more together then me and James had. He was in love with me.

I looked at Jack, he wiped my tear. He hugged me and led me outside.

"What's wrong Bea." He asked.

"James." I answered, I had a feeling he already knew about it.

"The son of a bitch, I told him." Jack said pinching the bridge of his nose.

"What?" I asked him.

"Bea, he's been seeing that other girl for a while now, I caught them when we where at Kacey and Kaleb's beach house."

Now I was angry. Jack had known all along and he had never even thought of telling me.

"He told me that he'd do something to you if I told you Bea, I had no other choice." Jack answered inching toward me with regret in his eyes.

"I- I need some space Jack, I need to talk to James about this." I told him, taking a step away from him.

"Bea," Jack started, but I was already inside the house running up the stairs. And trust me running in heels wasn't easy.

I ran all the way back up to my room and found James sitting on my bed with a bottle of vodka in his hands.

I stepped inside, and his eyes widened.

"Bea. . ." He said, eyes widening.

"James, how long?" I asked.

"For about three months now." James answered, "Around the time when we went to Kacey and Kaleb's beach house." He answered.

That's when I broke down, hearing it from Jack was a whole different story then hearing it from James. I fell to the floor, on my knees, and let the tears fall. I had nothing to say anymore, I was numb, I couldn't even feel my heart anymore.

James got down to the floor next to me and took my hand. I shook it off.

"Why?" I managed to croak out.

"Bea, I thought you didn't love me." He said.

"What!" I exclaimed standing up. "James I fucking love you so much, if I didn't, I wouldn't have wasted all these years thinking you were going to come back to me and loved you like there wasn't anything else I motherfucking could!" I yelled.

"I thought you loved Jack." He said looking down as if he was guilty.

"So you go and cheat on me with another girl?" "James we could've talked about this!" "You didn't have to go fuck another girl behind my back!" I managed to yell out, clenching my fists by my sides.

"Look, she was there for me when I was in the gang and she just happened to be there when we went on vacation and I thought you didn't like me anymore and I just went for it Bea." He said.

"So you fucked her when you were in the gang too." I stated.

He just looked down in shame.

I walked up to him and slapped him on the cheek. Then, with silent tears falling down my face, I pushed him while saying , I-fucking-hate-you, a push between each word.

"What did you call me here for tonight James?" I asked, so quietly you wouldn't be able to hear it.

"I was going to surprise you with a promise ring." He said. "But then Char was here and she followed me and I couldn't control myself." He said, flinching when he saw my face.

I honestly could not believe that any of this was coming out of his mouth. I was so angry and hurt that I just stood up and walked out of the room without saying anything else.

Fucking "Char"

He even had a fucking nickname for her. This was all just a big fat joke. I could not have hated myself more then I did today. I hated myself for falling in love so easily, for being a stupid teenager in love. I should have known. It was too good to be true.

I was done. What was there left for me to be happy for. This was what was destined to happen. Karma was back once again.

I guess I would never be anything else but ice cold.

THE END

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Well, that's that.

I'm sorry not sorry that this is the way it had to end :)

Honestly I don't know why I did that to my poor baby James :(

There will be a sequel and there's an epilogue next!!

Love,

Ya babe furever

insanely_beautiful

disha ;)