A New Begginning (Chris Motionless fanfic)

Chapter 6

Hayley's POV

"Hayley !! Hayley Hope!" He shouted standing up from the couch.

"Oh fuck" I muttered as he called me out.

"Chris stop your scaring her!" Ricky said

I felt the tears crawling and trying to escape my eyes. Max stood with a defensive pose beside me.

"Why did you leave?" Chris asked almost a whisper. I could hear the hurt in his voice. I did that. I hurt him.

"I-I-I had to" I looked down at my shoes. I wanted to craw in a hole and stay there for ever.

"But I loved you... I wanted to tell you to show you but then" i cut him off.

"But then you got shot" I said a little louder than him. "And it was my fault... If I just would have kept driving that night none of this would be happening"

"But why?" Chris looked like he was ready to cry.

"Chris I know Matt better that anyone els and if he had the chance he would have shot both of us then and there. I know the way I left wasn't fair but it didn't hurt me no less than it hurt you"

"Hayley I stayed up all night every night hoping you would show up I sat alone on the couch in the living room hoping you would walk right through the door... But ...you ... Never did" he said as a few tears left his eyes.

I got up and cupped his face.

"I'm so so sorry for the pain I caused you" I said whipping his tears.

He hugged me. He held the strongest hold as if he let go I would fall and shatter into a million pieces

"I missed you so much" he whispered into my ear.

"I missed you to" I said hugging him back. We broke the hug and I gave him a warm smile wiping away the new tears.

"Can we get back to the party?" Ricky asked

"Ricky it's Hayley !" Chris said happily

"Yeah I know can we go back I'm kinda bored"

"Wait what do you mean you know?" Chris asked 'oh shot!' I screamed in my mind

"Um I mean that's awesome!" Ricky tried to cover it up but failed epiclly

"No. You new she was here?" Chris asked

Ricky let out a sigh "yeah..."

"She texted me and we kept In touch after she left" Cassie chimed in

"What?" Chris said. His voice cracking

"Chris if you're mad don't be mad at them be mad at me I told all of them not to tell you about me. I only did it to protect you" I said hopping it would help

"That hurts." He said softly

"I should go I already cause a lot of pain an I don't wanna keep doing it" I said starting for the door with Max

"That all you can do can't you ?" He said

"What?" I said turning around

"All you can do is run from your problems that's all you ever do" he said

"Chris come on now " Ricky tried to ease him.

"Chris I'd rather go than see you fall apart right In front of me. I know that's something I can't stand nor stop. I wished and I prayed that things would be different ,for the pain to go away, for the shame to go. everyday for 2 years I thought about you I thought about how I could have jumped between you guys, to stop the bullet from hitting you. I thought about how thing would have turned out if I hadn't pulled over the night you guys got a flat tire in the muddled of that high way. Everyday I though that maybe ... Just maybe I wouldn't feel bad for what I did so of you wanna blame me for running just know that I did it for a dam good reason" I said sobbing not realizing how long I've been crying.