A New Begginning (Chris Motionless fanfic)

Chapter 26

Chapter 26

Hayley's POV

We all went back to the cabin. we changed into comfortable cloths and gathered around in the living room to watch a movie. We all sat around in the couches and on the floor. I brought bed sheet so people could get comfy. I sat crisscross next to Chris on the couch as I fed a bottle of milk to Skylar. She fell asleep quick but not before I burped her. Our pets were scattered around people as they laid with them and they petted them. Allie had Meme in her lap, Ricky had Dexter, Kuza had Max and Austin laid with Amy. We all watched attentively as the movie started. We were watching White House Down. Half way through the movie I felt Chris' head fall on my shoulder he started to get comfortable.

"If you're sleepy we could go upstairs" I whispered to him. He moved his head so he was looking at me. His eyes were wide awake.

"No, I'm good" he smiled and kissed my jaw.

"Ok" I said and kissed his head.

We watched the rest of the movie in silence. When it ended everyone was still awake.

"Sweeney Todd" Ghost said

"Lost Boys" Chris said

"Nightmare on Elm Street" I said

"Woah woah woah... Texas Chainsaw Massacre" kuza said

"I like that one" I said .

"Fuck I can't chose" Ange said. He was In charge of putting in the movies.

"I got 5 bucks in my pocket thats yelling your name" kuza smirked patting his front pocket.

"Deal!" Ange smiled as kuza handed him his money

"Hey! That's cheating" Ghost pouted striking my lower lip out.

"Don't worry babe well watch your movie next" Kylie said biting his bottom lip

"Like hell we will" muttered a teasing Chris..

We watched the rest of the movies as I got sleepy I rested my head on Chris' and fell asleep

-time lapse to next morning-

I woke up in bed slightly startled. I didn't remember coming up here. I tried moving but an arm tightened its grip around my waste as stomach. I turned and it was a sleeping Chris. He stuck his head in the back of my neck as he tangled his legs with mine. I got comfortable and them remembered.

"Skylar!" I whisper yelled as I turned in his grip. I sat up and looked behind Chris.

A sleeping Skylar was there and a sleeping Amy was next to her.

"Damn our bed is big" I said out loud.

"I know ...now lay down I want to cuddle" Chris said with his sleepy voice that sounded very attractive. With that I settled down and he wrapped his arms around me once again.

-A while later-

I woke up with Chris still holding tight on to me. His grip kinda hurt. I wiggled my way out of it without waking him and made my way to the bathroom grabbing my phone. I had a message

Unknown: He doesn't love you you fat disgusting bitch. He never will! You're a liar, a slut, and a pierce of trash. He doesn't want you he pities you, you whore.

I felt tears at the rim of my eyes beginning to spill, I let them. That message really hurt me... Did Chris really pity me... Did he really not love me?

I locked the door to the bathroom and opened up my hiding place. I climbed in and closed the door behind me. I haven't cut in a while. I know I told Chris I wouldn't but I didn't want to feel what I felt; I didn't want to feel down... I know this would help...kinda. I took a blade out I rolled down my black shorts and began to cut both thighs. It wasn't enough. I took off my brackets all of them and began to cut my arm. I wrote 'LIAR' and 'FAT' on my right arm and 'WHORE' and 'BITCH' on my left arm. I then looked at the tattoos that said 'Amy' and 'Max' I hurt alot. I felt like the words texted to me really hit me hard. I lied to my friends and family and the one person I love.... But what if he doesn't love me back what of those words were true what If he doesn't love me what if he just feels sorry for me. I won't be able to live with myself. I began to cut even more but I didn't write any words this time. I just cut till I was a bloody dripping mess and satisfied. I grabbed some baby wipes that I kept up here for things like this. I wiped the blood that was dripping down my legs and off my finger tips from my arms. I was a bloody shaking mess. I put my clothes back on. And I cleaned the blade I made sure to clean the blood from the floor and I stepped out back into the bathroom. I felt even more shaky. I stripped from my clothes and hoped into the shower. I let the hot water remove the blood from my arms and legs. It stung like a motherfucker but at the same time it felt really good. I watched as the pinkish water made its way down the drain. I have lied once again. I was clean for so many days and I just watched all of that go down the drain. Just like that. I hopped out the shower and took out the first aid kit to put gauze on my thighs. They wouldn't stop bleeding. I put at least 3 pieces of gauze on each thigh and then wrapped my body in a towel. I slowly made my way to my closet and pulled out my underwear and a black laced bra. I got out a plain black long sleeve shirt and soft black leggings. I waked into the bathroom to change, i didn't want to wake up Chris because i was hissing at the pain. i put my bra on and them its matching underwear. i then put my pants on. I slowly slipped my arms into the sleeves of my shirt and then pulled it all the way on. I did my usual make up and combed my hair. I need a hair cut its getting long. I dried my hair and straightened it. I put black lipstick on and my black coffin necklace. I put in silver rings for my all my piercings and opened the bathroom door. Chris was still asleep Amy had disappeared and Skylar was trying to get down from the bed. I quietly and quickly made my way to her. She was only in a diaper. Chris must have took the dress off before going to bed. I picked her up and changed her diaper I put on black stretchy pants and a navy blue shirt on her. I sat her on the bed and grabbed myself some socks. I grabbed Skylar again and made my way down stairs. Asking Alexandria was up and dress along with Pierce The Veil.