Michael Cliffords Rebel Sister

11

April

The whole thing with cindy happened about a week ago. I told the boys but they wouldn't belive me. Even luke my own boyfriend.

She found out that I told them and beat me harder than before. Since then I've ignored all the boys.

I've also cut everyday since then, belive me I'm not proud of it. I really want to get better. I want to be happy. I want to be able to laugh and for it not to be fake. I want to smile. I want to be needed and I want to be loved.

Those are some of the reasons for why I'm sat on the bathroom floor as silent tears prick and fall from my puffy eyes.

I look and the rather large puddle of blood and laugh. I don't even know why I'm laughing. It's quite creepy to be honest. Luckily everyone's out.

They all ignore my existence apart from luke he tries to talk to me but I just hum in response to any of his questions.

I quickly clean up the mess I've made and head to bed even though it's only 9.

Once I wake up in the morning I go onto twitter then instagram. As I scroll down I see a picture of luke from last night. He's lying in bed naked with some slut.

He cheated on me.

My sadness is quickly replaced by anger. As I March out my door.

I must have woken up pretty late since all the boys are up. I see luke and walk up to him.

I slam my phone on the table in front of him.
He looks up at me confused and then sees the picture on my phone.

"What the fuck is this?" I spit.
"Look April I can explain" he says nervously. See cliffords can be scary when you fuck with them.

"Oh please do, tell me why you never ask if I'm okay when you know I'm not. Why you go out every night to go clubbing. Why you sided with the slut my brother drags around. Explain all that." I yell.

"First of all I sided with mikey because you lied. second you were ignoring me and third I fucked that girl because you wouldn't have sex with me." He yells back.

"So that's it I was just a 'fuck' . You know what I'm glad I didn't fuck you because if I did this would hurt a lot more. But you know what I've had enough I give up. I give up on you, my brother and me. Have a nice life." By now I'm crying and I don't even want too.

"Go kill yourself"
I look up. It wasn't luke who said that.
It was Cindy.

"I will" I say quietly.

After that luke just looks at me and I can't take it anymore. So I leave. Goodbye world. I think as I walk to the knife draw.

Mikeys pov

I woke up to people yelling. At first I try to ignore it. Then I hear cindy shout.
"Kill yourself"
Why would she say that to someone.
I peek my head out of my bunk and see April luke and cindy then April speaks up.

"I will." It takes me a few seconds to process everything then I see my sister reach for a knife. She's really gonna do it.

I struggle to get out of bed and sprint taking the knife from her. I throw it across the room and hold April. She tries to get the knife but I hold her down soon ash and calum help me but luke just watches in guilt. I don't know what happened but now I belive April and I'm getting rid of cindy.

"Why won't you let me die" she repeated over and over again. What have I done to her.

I've completely broken my own sister. And she wants to die.

She was still kicking and screaming I think she's gonna have a panic attack if she doesn't stop now.

"April. April stop you're gonna have a panic attack.

She slowly calms down. Then starts speaking.

"Why do you hate me" she asks.
"April I don't hate you I'm just a stupid asshole for not be living you. Oh and cindy get the fuck off this bus." I shout.

She scoffs but leaves.

"Okay" she sighs.
"What happened?" I ask.

"Well luke cheated on me because I wouldn't have sex with him and that's all he wanted me for. No one belive me about cindy. And nobody cares about me. Not mum or you definitely not luke and the other guys don't even talk to me." She says as silent tears fall from her eyes.

"A-And I give up" she whispers.

I look down in guilt but notice blood on her sleeve by her wrists.
No she couldn't have.
She promised me.

"April W-whats on your wrists." I say.
She gulps and rolls up he sleeve only to reveal at least 30 fresh cuts.

"Y-you promised you'd stop"

"Promises are always broken" she says.

I just pull her in to a hug and we stay like that for a while.
Once we brake apart we decide on having a movie marathon.

Lukes pov

Why did I have to say that to her. I know how she feels so why would I do that.

I see her reach for the knife but get paralysed and don't know how to stop her. Thankfully michael comes in and stops her.

After movie marathon

Michael drags me out of the bus.

"What is wrong with you. Out of all the people to hurt her in that way I didn't think it'd be you Since you know how it feels." Mike says.

"I know I fucked up. I really like April I just made a mistake but came up with the most stupid excuse in the universe. How do I fix this, please mike I need to know." I plead.

"I wish I could bro, but I can't make that decision." Mike sighs.

Whoooooo I did one thousand words.