Moment of Reflection

Chapter 16

I woke up to Ben's lips neading my neck, his hands wandering across my chest.

"Ben." I said quietly.

"Good morning sexy," he said gruffly, climbing on top of me, "how about a nice morning fuck?" He whispered into my ear, grabbing onto the top of my panties.

I bit my lip, was he going to try this again? I had thought.

Shaking my head, "I- I don't want to. Is this supposed to even happen?"

He said this wasn't going to be a date, but I changed my mind, allowing it to be. But was this supposed to happen on a first date? Was this normal? Did this mean we were boyfriend and girlfriend?

"Oh c'mon baby," he said, moving his fingers over my entrance, the only thing separating them was the fabric of my underwear. "See, you're even wet. So that means you want to."

I was pretty certain that even if I was wet down there, that didn't mean I wanted to. "I said I didn't want to." I said, biting my lip and trying to squirm a bit.

"Pleeeaaassseee," he said, moving the wet fabric aside, running his fingers over myself, "for me, baby? I promise you'll love it." He whispered again, his hot breath against my ear as he began to slide a finger inside, causing me to freeze.

"I said no, Ben." I said, much louder this time as I pushed him off of me.

When I began to get up, he grabbed my ponytail, causing me to wince in pain. "Your loss." He said before he let go, allowing me to get up.

I quickly got dressed, grabbing my things so I could leave.

He didn't say anything to me when I walked out of his apartment, leaving him alone in his bedroom.

I debated if I wanted to call for a cab or just walk home.

Maybe walking will help. I thought, beginning to walk down the sidewalk.

I thought back to last night when Ben kissed me. He was soft at first, but then really rough. He tried to get me to have sex then, and I said no. I just didn't know what that was about. I didn't know if it was normal for that to happen, or what it means after a first date. I thought I was allowed to say no. But he got really mad when I said it.

I continued walking, thinking about the events that took place in the last twelve hours. Then my phone went off.

Ben-work: Baby I’m sorry about what happened. I shouldn't have acted like that. Come back? :(

Daisy: I’m already on my way home. I’m just really confused about all of this.

Ben-work: Confused about what?

Daisy: Is that even supposed to happen on a first date?

Ben-work: Yeah it's normal. It happens all the time

Daisy: ok... well what are we?

Ben-work: What do you mean? We're bf and gf now if that’s what you're asking.

Daisy: Oh ok.

Ben-work: Are you doing anything tonight? Maybe I could come over and we could play a few board games or something :) I still feel bad.

Daisy: Ok. You can come by, yeah. But not til after 4

Ben-work: Okay baby <3 I'll see you later :) :* love you

When I read his last text, I had a different feeling inside. I felt happy. Someone loves me.

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