watchful eyes (tronnor)

thirty; the things worth the fear of the king

i'm more excited to post the next chapter than i was when i went to harry potter world at universal studios i've been working on it for weeks and it is p e r f e c t

but then there is troye.

there is troye with a bulletproof heart and skin as cracked as porcelain and as beautiful as glass. there is troye with eyes the color of all of connor's favorite paintings. there is troye who is innocent and whose kiss is like a dream and who does not deserve to be shot (no one does, but troye especially). there is troye who does not deserve to hurt and connor could never bring himself to hurt troye.

(connor is suddenly aware that every touch is like frostbite and that every glance is like the shattering of wine glasses.)

connor is afraid, but troye (with his blue mosaic eyes and his red watercolor smile) makes him want to be brave. connor is afraid (he is terrified and he is cowardly and he is broken) but maybe some things are worth being afraid for.

(connor stares into the mirror.)

("i'm gay.")

some things are worth his mother's anger and the indentation of a wedding ring on his cheek.

(he does not close his eyes and he does not look away.)

troye is one of those things.