Illusion

Faye

4 May 2012

Evening

Finally nakalabas narin ako. I feel really suffocated in that house. Lately, parang iba ang utak ng asawa kong si Yvan. He's been acting so weird. I love him yes, but i really need space and air.

Today is friday and i wanted to be with my girl friends, so here i am with Sarah and Angeline, my two bestfriends. We are at Angeline's house, which is not too far away from mine.

Di ko nalang sinabe kay Yvan kung san ako pupunta kasi baka kung ano nanaman gagawin nya. Last time na sinabe ko sakanya na kasama ko tong dalawang to, nagalit sya. For no reason that i would know.

Flashback

8 months ago.

"Mahal i'm going on a little trip with Sarah and Angeline, it's for work naman. i'll be back in some days." Excited kong sinabe kay Yvan.

i'm really excited. I actually travel a lot around for work, i'm a model. But this time it will be different, i'm going with my two bestfriends. They are also two famous models.

"Ayoko. di ka pupunta". Sagot nya.

Nagulat nalang ako. He looks angry.

"Bakit? importante sakin to. Ano masama don? Gusto mo bang mawala trabaho ko?" galit kong sinabe.

"I don't have to explain anything. kapag ayoko, ayoko. Asawa mo ako, pinapakinggan mo dapat ako." ugh, this guy.

"is it for them? wala naman silang ginagawa sayo diba? Well, i'm going tonight and you can't do anything." paalis ko nang sinabe.

Present

Naaalala ko pa. The day na bumalik ako. It was a mess. That place that me and Yvan still call "home" was a total mess. Nakabalik nalang ako ng sira ang bahay, and that wasn't the thing that broke me. The thing that broke me was that, the little and last memory na binigay sakin ng mga magulang ko bago mamatay ay tinapon ng minamahal kong asawa. Iniisip ko pa minsan, kung bakit nya itatapon ang napakaliit na necklace, it's not going to kill anyone. Tumatawa sya nung sinabi nyang tinapon nya sa malayong lugar para daw makalimutan ko na ang nakaraan. What was even so funny? that was an important thing for me. He knows perfectly how to drag me down, even with small and simple actions. He knows me more than i do.

Even though, sinira nya nga ang bahay and nawala yung necklace ko, I forgave him, kase mahal ko sya.

but one thing that i don't have to forget is that he can be a dangerous person.

"Faye, napakalalim ata ng iniisip mo! Kanina ka pa dyan, your phone is ringing! Si Yvan, sagutin mo dali!" sabi sakin ni Sarah na napakalakas ng boses.

I was thinking way too much wasn't i?

"Faye. Umuwi ka na. o gusto mo pa, ako mismo pupunta dyan?"

Alam nya ba? Alam nya ba kung nasan ako?