Another Life

The hospital again

I lay in a hospital bed. They said I got off lucky. No broken bones. I have a gash in my head but other than that I'm fine. Zoey hasn't left my side. Sebastian was placed in the waiting from family only until the doctor is done and everything. They want me to stay over night. That my recent beings. That I passed out from either blood loss or shock. They don't want to take any chances. Finally Zoey and I have time to ourselves to talk.

"Sofie answer honestly. Did you want to jump at first?" Zoey asked.

"I don't know I was upset. Some part of me did another didn't. So I just sat there saying worst has happened. It's always me getting heart broken or nearly dieing or getting picked on. A part of me wanted it to end all of it." I pause. "They did a whole body check to make sure I was ok. They looked at my legs above my knees and found cuts on one," I say. I don't finish cause Zoey already knows.

"You didn't?" She asked but stopped.

"I did. I'm so sorry Zoey," I say. Picking at my blanket.

"Sofie look at me," Zoey says. She pulls up her shirt just so you can see the side of her hip. Cuts just like mine, hers are fresh. We on each other and say we are sorry. Sebastian walks in. I still have my hospital dress on. To where they show my cuts. I hurry to pull it down but it's to late.

"Sofie is that from the fall? Why are they only in-" he stops. He puts the pieces together. He stops where he is standing. "Why? Was it because of me? Why Sofie? Why would you do that?" He asked his voice getting louder. Tears clouding his eyes.

"No it wasn't you. It-" he cut me off.

"You know what save it. If you want to do that to yourself fine. I just don't want to get hurt when you keep doing it then your gone," he says. He walks out.

"Then why is it. I'm always heart broken because of you! You see one thing wrong with me and you give up just like that!" I yell at him he was just about to open the door. He closes it and turns back around.

"I see that as something you chose to do. You could have chosen not to do that," he says.

"You know what I see it as a bad day. A mistake. I made one mistake and you just leave just like that. All we've been through and a few cuts make you leave really! I don't expect you to pity me. But this is didn't expect. I thought you liked me maybe.. just maybe even loved me. I see that once you saw how dark my mind is and the thing I went to ONCE! You just give up like that. Haven't you ever done something that you regret just once?" I say. I have tears rolling down my face if he walks out that door and we don't resolve this. If he walks out that door still angry or not wanting to speak to me again I think my heart is truly broken this time.

"I just can't believe you did the same thing. As my sister," he says looking down at the door moving his shoe across the floor not picking it up the sound irrates me but I push it out of my mind.

"Your sister I didn't know you had a sister. What happened?" I asked. He takes a few seconds before he starts to speak.

"She was like you. Pretty, smart, nice, one day she met this guy he light up her day. They instantly hit it off. This guy didn't date much only one other girl they dated for 8 years they finally broke it off. When he met my sister. His ex on the other hand didn't take it to well. She keep texting him. Flirting with him. My sister came home crying a lot. She would wear long sleeves the next day for months. When finally she caught her boyfriend and his ex kissing. She ran home when no one was home I was still at school we want to the same school. When I heard she left. I immediately left. I went home and started searching for her. She was in the bathroom a empty bottle of pills and her arms and legs full of cuts. Blood coming out of all of them. There was so much blood. By the time the ambulance came and my parents came she was gone. There was nothing could have been done. It's been a year now," he says. Tears rolling down his face.

"I'm sorry I didn't know. It's not easy. You can't just stop. It's not like saying your not going to drink soda anymore. It's a fight everyday," I say

"I know that it's just I almost lost you today. Your the only person who gave me light since she has died to know you did this and almost died. It's hard. It's easier to think I would be better without. But I know I wouldn't be I need you in my life. I don't care about those cuts. Just promise me there won't be more. You text me anytime. I don't care if it's 5 in the morning. 2 am, I will answer we will talk until you feel better. We will fight this together," he says.

"I promise," I say. I put my head in his shoulder. "I almost died and it wasn't Tiffany. It was Karen the new girl who was talking to you. She tried to kill me," I say crying. Why not cry more today it's not like I deserved it.

"It's ok they got her. Your going to be ok," he says smoothing my hair out to calm me down. I fall asleep in his arms and I think it's the best sleep I've gotten in a long time.

Author notes

HI it's music_helps_2. Hope you guys liked the chapter but what I'm really here to tell you is. If any of you are having suicidal thoughts don't be afraid to pm I will answer your. I hope you guys have a great day.