One Kiss (Niall Horan Fanfic)

Chapter 33

May 30, 2013

Jessica's pov

I opened my eyes and realized there was no one beside me. I frowned until I saw the note on the pillow next to me.

Baby,

I had to leave for work And you were still sleeping, didn't want to wake you. I love you And I'll see you later.

           -Nialler Xx

I smiled as I read the note. I looked over at the clock -whoa, 11:36 a.m. I really overslept. I stretched my arms And legs, getting rid of the stiffness and yawned. Well, might as well get up. I fell asleep in one of Niall's shirts last night and some black workout shorts so I didn't bother changing. I got to thinking about Niall and me. I used to wake up with his lips on my jaw or neck, now it's a note or we meet downstairs. We've been on maybe two dates in the past three weeks. And now, when we go to bed, we just... go to bed. He doesn't try anything remotely close to snogging anymore. Sure I enjoy him spooning me, but I miss when we couldn't get enough of each other. I walked into my bathroom And looked in the mirror. My hair is frizzy, my eyes are slightly red, and I pretty much look like a zombie. Some times I don't know why Niall ever wanted to be with me. I'm not that pretty, I'm chubby, I don't have the famous thigh gap, I have the dullest hazel eyes, and my nose is huge. I'm not even that much of a girly girl. I looked down at my wrists, there aren't scars there, but I have had plenty opportunities to cut. I could never bring myself to doing it though, the voices would always ring through my head though. Especially when I first moved here.

she's weird

she doesn't have a daddy

ew! you're such a freak!

Go starve yourself fatty

As I got older, the insults got worse, but I never told anyone but Niall. He was the only person I could turn to. And he was the first person I thought about when I considered solving my problem completely by eliminating myself.

Ugh! Stop from your pity party! You are fucking awesome! and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise!

That's the spirit! I smiled at my reflection this time as I flattened my bed hair. I looked over at my calendar and tomorrow is circled.

17!

Holy fruitloops! I'm turning seventeen tomorrow! With all that's going on, I completely forgot. The hell with my pity part! I'm turning seventeen! I looked once more at my reflection and made my way downstairs to find Carlie making some sort of creation with random foods. Man, people have weird cravings when they're pregnant. "Sup my lady friend?" she says as she glances up from her food.

"Insulation, what about you two? " she looks up and stares at me strangely.

"What two? There's only me..." I lightly laugh and point at her stomach.

"uh... hello. Forgetting someone? "

"Oh....yeahh...sometimes I forget hahaa.nothing much  just tried to find food to satisfy my hunger"

"I see.... what exactly is that anyway? "

"Umm...not exactly sure. I just started pulling stuff out of the fridge and cooking it. I think it's eggs and jelly and sausage and...maybe a couple of strawberries and peanut butter" I shuddered at the random ingredients.

"Oh," I laughed "so how's Harry? We heard you two come home at like 1 a.m." I wiggled my eyebrows and she blushed.

"Haha. Hes good. We went and saw the new carrie movie. It was so sick! I think he was more scared than I was haha, he hid his eyes a couple of times and made me hold his hand all the way home "