new boy || shawn mendes fanfiction (completed)

where are you now?

"I can't- I can't bre-the"
I said as I tried to control my breathing.
"It's okay. I'm here, Scarlett I'm right here"
Emma's reassuring voice kept repeating over and over, eventually my breathing was calm and all you could hear were small sobs escaping my mouth.
"I-it happened so quickly"
I mumbled as I shivered at the thought of previous events.
"Hey come on, tell me what happened"
Emma said as she handed me a cup of coffee. I gratefully took it as I held it in my hands for warmth.
I felt dirty, I felt disgraceful and I just felt embarrassed.
"I'm here for you scar, tell me when you're ready"
She said as she handed me a long thick purple blanket.

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I was walking down the sidewalk because it was the quickest route home, I had to go to the grocery store to pick up some groceries that my mom needed for tonight's dinner.
I didn't recognise his voice until I turned round to see his piercing blue eyes staring into my mine, he had his usual smirk attached on his lips.
He then started walking towards me so obviously I picked up my pace because I didn't want to be anywhere near him.
"I said hi babe"
My heart started to beat faster because I could hear the aggression in his tone of voice and by then I knew he was angry.
I ignored his comment as I started to speed walk down the path but he was to quick for me, he pinned me against the wall.
I couldn't even move, I stood there frozen to the spot, my hands were shaking and my legs felt like jelly, my brain wasn't functioning, I kept screaming words but they never came out.
He learnt forwards as he whispered into my ear, I could smell that he was drunk, he was drenched in alcohol.
He then put his hands around my waist, I kept moving and telling him to stop but he wouldn't.
He started to vigorously kiss me, with so much force, he was way stronger than I was.
"No stop"
I yelled as I kept moving my head away from his direction.
"Please Brandon"
I repeated he wasn't taking none of it, he started to pull down my shorts but I wouldn't allow it, I kept kicking him and trying to get out his grasp.
He was so strong he held my legs as he pulled them down, so I kicked him in the balls, he yelled out in pain.
"You just did the wrong thing bitch"
By now tears were falling down my face as I struggled to pull them back up, I was trying to push him away with all the force I had but the force I did have was nothing compared to what he had against me.
"Brandon!"
I squeaked out in pain as he started to kiss my upper thighs.
He was holding me so tight that my thighs had nail dents in my skin.
"Hush babe"
He said as he made his way further up my body.
"Please please"
I repeated as I tried to get up by pushing him down, he then pinned my arms up against the wall as he tried to pull my shirt off.
"No! STOP"
I yelled over and over.
Then suddenly I heard footsteps running towards us.
"Get of her!"
The boy shouted, my vision was blurry and I was to scared to look up.
"Run! Scarlett! now!"
The boy yelled, I quickly got up and pulled my shorts up and ran. I didn't look back, I just heard loads of shouting and then more people came and I don't Know what happened afterwards. I just ran back, I ran all the way here because I couldn't go home and you were the only person I could go to.
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"What! That fucking dick! I'm so sorry"
Emma said as she brought me into her arms, I sobbed into her chest as I thought about the moments I tried to get out of there.
"I felt so scared. I was so scared"
I whispered as my body shook with fear.
"Of course you would be! He basically almost raped you but you are okay now, I'm here"
She said with her confident reassuring tone of voice.
"I feel dirty"
I mumbled as I sat up and put a piece of my hair behind my ear.
"Of course you do! That bastard! Do you want to shower here? You can just wear some of my leggings and a t-shirt?"
She suggested as she quickly walked over to her closet and pulled them out.
"Yes thank you"
I said as I took the items from her hands and headed into the guest shower.
"Wait!"
Emma yelled so I turned around and furrowed my eyebrows.
"Who was the guy? He said your name?"
She questioned and I shrugged my shoulders.
"It happened so quick and I was too embarrassed to look back"
I admitted so she gave me a small apologetic smile and hurried me into the bathroom.
I quickly texted my mum telling her I was at Emma's because she needed me for something important and I'd be home in half an hour.
I then decided to text Shawn, I wanted to tell him, for him to comfort me, for him to be able to hold me and tell me everything's okay. That's out of the option, if I told him he'd want to come back and I wouldn't be able to take his dream away from him, no matter the circumstances.

To Mendes❤️
I miss you.

I sent the text and then I walked over to the sink, I looked up at mirror and starred at my reflection. I had tear stained cheeks and my eyes were heavy and my bags were really visible, my hair was falling out of its ponytail and my face was really pale, as if I were sick.
All I want right now is the one thing I can't have; that is shawn.

"Why does this always happen?"

I mumbled to myself before I stepped into the shower to rinse the dirty
feeling away. I just wish the shower would wash away the memory too.

A/n: I sorta kinda cried while writing this oh.