How I Married My Bias

CHAPTER 14

"I just wanted to talk with you." He said. "About a lot of things."

The idea was so unreal. It's like a snapshot of dreams I used to have, dreams that are now coming to life. He stopped the car and parked it on the side of the road overlooking the sea.

"Why here?" I asked. He opened the car door and hopped out.

"Come and answer that for yourself." He said.

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"I just love it here. The breeze, the fresh air, the sea and no one knows who you are." He said closing his eyes and spreading his arms like embracing the sea breeze.

Then for a moment, I closed my eyes and feel the breeze too. It was overwhelming.

"It's a shame we didn't catch the sun set. It would've been more beautiful." He said then faced me with his hair messed up. Even with his hair messed up, he still looked so amazing.

"No whiteboards from now on. Just talk and be comfortable with it. Talk like it's not me you're talking to." He said and sat on the front of the car with his feet propped against the concrete barrier on the side of the road.

"Okay then." I said. I feel like I wanted to say more but that's the only reply I could think of.

"Have you ever wondered what might've happened if you change some things you did a long time ago?" he said facing me.

Actually, I do wonder about things like that every now and then. "Yeah. I do." I answered as I walked towards the barrier and gazed far out into sea.

"This time last year, everything was so different. I guess change is inevitable." I said then faced him.

It was getting dark and the sky was all painted purplish black. But I could see his face, the face I have long memorized, every detail of it.

"This time last year was the same as it is now and all the years before that." He said, nudging a little bit to the side and patted the space beside him.

I don't know how I garnered enough courage but I sat down beside him like he's not who he is.

"That's because I'm scared of changes, scared to try something new, scared of what it might bring to me. So scared." He said still looking far out into sea.

"I'm scared too. But that's how life works. You've got to take chances or you'll live with regrets and that's what scares me the most. Living in a world of what-if's."

"Welcome to my world then." He said with a giggle.

"By the way, how'd you end up here in Korea?" he asked.

"It's a bit of a long story." I said.

"We had all the time in the world." He answered.

I let a deep breath out. I don't know if I'm ready to spill this story out but I felt that I needed this. I needed to someone to talked to.

"Well, I run away." I said then waited for any reaction but he just looked at me and waiting for me to continue.

"My parents wanted something else for me, a different path. I wanted to make them proud of me but that's just not what I wanted for my life."

He just sat there looking at me as I talked.

"So I run away. I earned money from my summer jobs and I used that to come here. And I missed them but I felt that I don't belong there anymore. If this was price for choosing the things that made you happy, then I'm willing to pay for it. It was worth the pain anyway." I said then hugged my knees.

"We're both unlucky people. One afraid of changes and imprisoned in a world of regrets and the other afraid of regrets and imprisoned in an ever changing world." He said with a sigh.

Then came a long moment of silence. It was dark and I could barely see his face now. The air was filled with peacefulness and the sea was calm with waves gently breaking on the sandy shore.

"Let's divert into something else. Soohee told me you're a Carat. Tell me things in a Carat's point of perspective." He said facing me.

"Being a Carat was fun. Seventeen was the first Kpop group that I liked. I listened to your songs and watch your shows. Everything. It's like Seventeen played a huge role in my life. It wasn't easy but it was worth everything." I said not knowing that I smiled.

"It was nice to know that what we do actually impacts people. We were so thankful to all of our Carats. Without them, we would've been here."

Then he stood up.

"Let's make our very own wishes right here." He said.

"Wishes?" I asked.

"Yeah, and the sea would grant it."He said.

I nodded and stood up. All of a sudden, he pulled me close to him then he closed his eyes and probably wished. I closed mine too and with all I am, with all my heart I wished.

All this time I only had one wish and that's what I wished for. The cold sea breeze swept the wishes away.

"What'd you wish for?" I asked.

Then he leaned forward to me and pressed his mouth close to my ears.

"I wished for your wish to come true." Then he walked towards the car and hopped in.