Lying To Hide These Feelings veeoneeye/lukeisnotsexy

Chapter 7

My body ached as I sat up. I looked down at myself. Fully clothed. Blood on my white sheets. Fuck.

    I picked my phone up and turned it on. 1 new text message. 39 missed calls.

   Luke, what happened tonight? I'm worried about you. Please return my calls, please Luke x

Jason does care about me. But not as much as I care about him.

I stripped my bed and threw the sheet into a bundle on the floor. How on earth am I going to wash these without my mum seeing?

  I pulled my clothes off stepping into the shower. The hot water running over my body. It hurt. I liked it.

    do not look at your arms, Luke.

I turned the temperature up higher. The water scaulding my skin. My pale body turning red. It felt good.

Stepping out, I threw on clothes and made my way to the kitchen. My parents where already there.

  "Luke? I thought you were staying at Jasons for the night?" my mum asked as she poured herself a glass of orange juice.

I laughed to myself. "Yeah, I didn't feel too good so I came home pretty early!"

"Son, you look terrible!" my dad said as he examined my face. Thanks dad, thanks.

   "I'm tired, that's all," I faked a smile and made my way back to my room.

I picked up my phone and text Jason back.

  Sorry Jason, I just had to leave

I placed my phone down, catching a glimse of my arm. It doesn't feel good when I cut myself. It hurts. I don't get a thrill out of doing it. I hate myself. But I deserve it.

My phone vibrated.

but why? we need to talk. be at the park in 15 minutes x

Fuck. Fuck you, Jason. I don't want to talk. I don't need to talk.

I sat down on the small cold bench. I prepared myself. I looked around for the blue haired boy.

"Luke." a calm voice spoke as they sat close to me.

I turned my head. It was Jason. My blue haired best friend was no longer blue haired. It was bleach blonde, almost white.

"I like your hair!" and for the first time in ages I wasn't lying to Jason. He looked good.

"Thanks, but, we're not here to talk about me. We're here to talk about you. Luke, what happened?"

  I looked into his odd coloured eyes. "I didn't know April was going to be there!" my voice was quiet and it hurt to talk.

"I didn't know she was there. Why what happened?"

  "She said stuff, about me, and the way I was before" the words flowed out of my mouth, I didn't want them to.

He grabbed me and held me in a tight hug. I wrapped my arms around his thin torso. This felt right.

    "Oh Luke! I'm so sorry!" He let go of me and looked me in the eyes. "I didn't know, i'm so sorry!" he grabbed my hands in his and i whined in pain.

    Good one Luke.

"Luke?"

"jesus, Jason! You almost broke my wrist!!" I laughed as I pulled my hands away from him.

"ooops! sorry!" he laughed as he stood up. He held out his hand, and I accepted. "coffee?"

I nodded and off we went hand in hand.

I'm having serious writers block just now, I'm sorry! please comment and if you have any ideas please share them with me! Thank you!!!!