Lying To Hide These Feelings veeoneeye/lukeisnotsexy

Chapter 12

My whole body hurts. I open my eyes and I'm blinded by the light. Is this heaven?

"Luke?" a small voice spoke. They seem unsure yet full of hope.

A hand held onto mine tightly. What is going on, where am I?

I attempt to move but my body is weighed down. A pain soared through my head.

It hit me. This isn't heaven. This isn't where I'm supposed to be. I'm still alive. I can't even kill myself. I need to die.

"Luke, can you hear me?" the voice spoke again. I don't want to answer. I want them to go away. I want to go away.

Opening my mouth I talk. "I-I yes"

Everything comes into focus. The white walls. The white floor. The same place I end up every time I mess up so bad.

Sounds of crying flood the room.

"Luke! you silly boy!"

I don't need this now. Especially not from my mother.

"I'm sorry" I lied. Lying is the only way I can get through life.

A loud bang made the whole room shake. "LUKE?" the familiar voice echoed.

No. This cannot happen. Jason cannot be here. If I'm still here then he's read my letter. He's read my diary. He knows everything. I need this to end now.

"Jason!" I gasp.

"I've been so worried, I only left to shower and I was on my way back and--"

"Wait. How long have I been um..." I interuped him.

"Mr Cuforth, you have been in a coma for 8 days now. This lovely young man saved your life." The nurse spoke as she scribbled things down on her clipboard.

I look to Jason. His eyes are red and he looks like he's had no sleep. He looks at me with tears in his eyes.

"I'm going to call your father. Do you want anything?" my mum said as she plants a kiss onto my forehead. Shaking my head she leaves the room.

I watch the nurse as she paces around the room doing various things. She turns to us and smiles.

"Mr Cuforth, I will be back soon to check up on you. For now I will leave you two to catch up." she opens the door to leave. "Oh and Mr Cuforth, this young man here, he's a keeper!" and with that she was gone.

A shade of red washed my cheeks. I look to Jason and his cheeks have also turned a shade of dark red.

What did she mean "he's a keeper"?

"Luke, why?" Jason said softly. "No, you don't have to reply. I know why."

"I'm sorry, Jason" Guilt hit me. Was I really going to leave him in the world on his own?

"Don't apologise, Luke." my poor best friend is hurting. I can see it in his eyes.

"What did the nurse mean when she said you saved me?"

"I was bored, I needed someone to talk to so I made my way to your house. I knocked, but nobody answered. So I made my own way in. I headed straight for your room. And that's when I saw you. I had to stop myself from being sick. I took you down instantly and placed you on the ground and called 999. I had no idea what to do. I didn't know if you were dead or not Luke!"

he paused, looking at me. Placing his hand ontop of mine he continued.

"I needed to find an explaination and that's when I found your letter and diary. I read them both, by your side, holding your hand. I cried, Luke. I did. I didn't know you felt like that. When the ambulance arrived I didn't know what to do or say. I was confused and scared. Once we arrived here, I called your parents and they were devistated. I gave them your letter, Luke. And they broke down. But then I reminded then that you were still here and you were going to be okay because you're Luke Cutforth!"

I can feel the tears running down my face, but I make no attempt to wipe them away. I just keep my eyes on Jason.

"And I'm just so happy that you're still here because I'm not too sure I could have coped knowing about your feelings. Why didn't you tell me, Luke? Why were you so scared?" his voice was no louder than a whisper.

"I don't know, Jason. I think I was scared of rejection or losing you"

"Losing me? You were scared of losing me? Like I almost lost you? Oh, silly Luke!"

Jason moves close to me. I can feel his breath on my face. I stop breathing. His face getting ever so close. Our faces now only an inch or two apart. Jason closes the space, our lips touching slightly. He kisses me. I'm too stunned to kiss back.

"Please Luke don't ever assume anything ever again. Like I said. If you weren't here, I wouldn't be here!"

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