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Twenty Three

(This song is everything, I recommend it along with the remixes)

1amgrunge: "Its funny how the person who hurts you, is the one who swore they never would."

12pmpunk: "No this is not a game.
Patience and determination. Starin' at a body of it. Starin' at a gladiator. Victory is sweet and I'm a get it now and later."

I lay in Marcel's arms with his chin on top of my head giving me a peck on the forehead every once in a while. Is it bad that I have been falling deeper into my feelings for Marcel? Is it worse that I imagine Marcel is Niall when we do things like this?

I haven't gotten over Niall. I don't think I ever will. "Want to head over to the boys house for a bit?" Marcel's chest vibrated as he spoke.

"Won't Niall be there?" I asked getting nervous at the thought.

"The boys said he's been locked up in his room. He doesn't even go downstairs to eat or anything." Marcel said as his voice grew with a bit of worry.

"Okay, let's go." I said and didn't bother getting dressed. Marcel didn't either so I quickly rolled on some deodorant and sprayed on some perfume.

We walked out hand in hand to the car. When we climbed in, Marcel's hand intertwined with mine on the console. I smiled faintly as he drove down the familiar street.

He raised his hand to knock on the door and a very happy Louis opened. "Lauren!" He yelled in joy and engulfed me in a hug. The boys came after him and gave me a tight hug.

I sat down on the couch and the others followed. "So how have you been?" Liam asked.

"Well, someone sort of helped me." I said looking over to Marcel and he grabbed my hand smiling.

"Aw, our little Lauren feels better now? That's great!" Louis coo'ed pinching my cheeks which I responded to by slapping his hands away.

Harry was about to speak when a door opened from upstairs. The boys eyes grew wide as we watched a very drunk Niall stumble downstairs with a bimbo attached to his neck.

He turned over to me and a smirk grew on his lips. "I did this for you. I still want you." He slurred and headed outside with the bimbo.

Tears welled up in my eyes and I clutched my face in my hands. An involuntary sob came out and I couldn't stop crying.

"Just when I think I was about to move on, he does this." I said and Marcel hugged me to his chest. I felt the couch dip down and a hand placed itself on my thigh rubbing comfortingly.

"Babe, it'll be okay. We've all gone through bad breakups. I'm still trying to deal with mine." Zayn's voice said soothingly.

"How did you deal with it?" I sniffled.

"I write to express my feelings in a song and sing it." He replied and grabbed my hand.

"Would you like to write a song with me?" He offered.

"I would love to, but I'm warning you. I am no good at singing." I warned playfully.

He lifted me up off the couch and dragged me over to the recording room and sat me down. He handed me a notebook and pen.

"Write down what you feel sometimes. Perhaps you still miss him I assume?" He wondered.

"Yes, can I tell you something no one can know about?" I asked. Hopefully, I can trust him. He nodded hooking his pinky finger with mine.

"When I'm with Marcel, sometimes I imagine it being Niall." I said shamefully looking down.

Zayn crouched down and looked at me in the eyes. "Hey, no need to be ashamed. I too have scenarios where I do that as well." He reassured.

I gripped the pen tightly and began writing the song. I held up the tip of the pen up to my bottom lip and tapped. Its always been a habit of mine when I'm thinking. However, I seemed to be flowing the words freely.

I held up the notebook and high five Zayn. I smiled giddily at him and sat at the piano. "Please excuse my horrible singing if it comes to the point." I said and placed my fingers on the piano.

Listen long, long enough you can love me
I'll be just yours, you can hold me
Even let you undress my mind
Save it, play it, watch it then press rewind
I can give you what you need
I can give you what you need

[Chorus:]
I can make you feel
I can make you feel
I can make you feel alright
I can make you feel alright
I can make you feel alright

Breathe, breathe me in, taste my words, let me blow your mind
I will take you far, far away
I'll make you feel alright
You've gotta crave it and chase it
Until you're close enough to taste it
I can give you what you need
I can give you what you need

[Chorus:]
I can make you feel
I can make you feel
I can make you feel alright
I can make you feel alright
I can make you feel alright

I can make you feel alright [x3]

I stopped playing the keys on the piano and heard clapping from behind me. "That was amazing. We had no idea you could sing!" Harry exclaimed.

"Yeah, you really put alot of emotion into it. I'm proud of you." Zayn said and pulled me into a hug.

"You'll have to sing for me sometime, babe." Marcel said smiling and hooking his arm around my waist.

"You guys can come over tomorrow if you'd like?" I offered.

"Sure, let's head to that one club in town on Friday." Liam said and everyone agreed.

"Alright, see you guys tomorrow." I said and gave them all a hug before leaving with Marcel to our apartment.

Hey guys, ik this chapter sucked but I think I'll do a double update today and do Niall's POV next chapter.

🎵Song: Make You Feel by Alina Baraz ft. Galamatias🎵

Anyways, that song yes heaven. I recommend pyxis and vestige remix.💖

Also OMG TYSM FOR 771 READS!!💜

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