Drowning- a Chris motionless fanfiction- sequel

For the first time she felt loved..

-Crystals POV-
Weeks past and everything was pretty much the same.
I'm surprised I'm still here actually, they must hate me by now,
I still do not trust them, not after the last ones.
I logged into my social media and the sweet sight of death threats spammed my account.
Marvellous,
Chris and Emily don't know about my Social media cause I never let them in enough to to know half the stuff I'm up to.
However I mourn for them,
I have always dreamed of people like them to hug me when I'm scared, kiss me good night, hold my hand if I'm sad,
Keep me safe and warm and secure,
Sometimes I ask myself what on earth is wrong with me, I have a good family right in front of me and I can't even let them call me their daughter yet I ask for love.
I have severe trust issues, also I hate myself,
I grew up around people who hate me, abusive parents, and endless bullies, not to mention my last foster parents, they tricked me into thinking I was safe,
Then we 'moved house' in other words re located me to a rough ass apartment where I was introduced (forced) into drugs,
Of course I dint take anything any more, I hated the stuff,
And now I'm left for my own mind to swallow me whole,
I wiped my tears and opened my bag,
Of they find out about what I'm about to do, then they will truly hate me,
But at this point I can't help myself,
I'm sorry Chris and Emily.
But this is what I must do to cope.

-Chris's POV-

Me and Emily giggled and we snuggled on the sofa,
"Do you think she will ever open up, I really wish we would have times like this but together " asked Emily holding my hand
"I know, I wish so too, but don't worry, she just got here, it will take time I'm sure"
She nodded and kissed my cheek,
I kissed back deeply laying her down on the sofa trailing kissed down her neck,
She let out a moan,
"W..will she hear us?"
"No, the living room is sound proof" I grunted and pulled down her jeans,
I rubbed my hands up her scarred thighs kissing each one,
"You really are a tease" she smiled in a breathy whisper,
I grinned and put my hand done her panties making her moan and kiss my neck.
I unzipped my jeans and grabbed her sides as I entered her slowly,
I found my pace as we yet again made love.

-crystals POV-

I grabbed my blade and did short cuts at the side of my arm,
Only short ones cause I don't want anyone to see.
Also the scars are not as visible either,
The blood dripped in the bathroom sink, I let out a breath, it hurt more than last time,
I wrapped a elastic band round my arm tightly, stopping the heavily blood flow,
I ran it under a cold tap till it eventually stopped,
I changed into my pyjamas and put a sweater on,
Bracelets on, sleeves down,

I headed down stairs seeing Chris and Emily snuggling into each other,
I smiled,
Should I?

-Emily's POV-

Madelyn came in and stood by the fire place awkwardly,
I smiled and lifted the blanket for her to join,
"Care to join? it's alright, we are a f..family"
"You really want me to be a part of it?" She asked shakily standing all tense,
"Of course we do, we both love you" Chris added,
A small smile crept onto her little fragile face,
Me and Chris both held hands under the quilt,
We both smiled at each other as she walked over and sat in-between us,
I put my arm round her and so did Chris,
"You like lost boys?" Asked Chris,
"Never watched it"
"What? Well that's about to change" said Chris pressing the remote,
About half way through the movie crissy became more comfortable around us both,
She rested her head on my chest which I have wanted ever since I wanted a child,
To have my little girl resting on me for comfort,
I looked over at Chris and he smiled,
"I..I've never been held like this before" she said quietly
I kissed her forehead,
"I know about your past darling and o want you to know that your loved here alright?"
"I love you mommy, I love you daddy" she whispered falling asleep,
Tears shot in Chris's eyes and also in mine,
"We love you more baby doll" said Chris's as we all cuddled together at last as a family..

Hey guys,
Hope you enjoyed this chapter,
Beginning to get into writing this story,pits hard to write two Chris motionless stories at once though,
But it's fine, just if I get confused and ou the wrong name in please bare with me,
If I write Madelyn instead of crystal I'm sorry it's from my other story I'm currently writing,
Anyways I love you guys
Comment what you think
Seeya
Gem
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