All Of Me//Sheo

Chapter four: Tobias Eaton

Theo's POV

I'm so fucking stupid. I just slipped to Shai that I love her. Of course she doesn't love me, I knew that before I even said anything to her. I probably just ruined everything.

Way to go Theo. My mind yells at me.

God Shai won't want to be friends with me anymore, who would.

I throw a vase to the ground, screaming in response. I just let loose, punching the walls, throwing everything to the floor, screaming at everything, eventually I fall to the floor crying. I just ruined it all.

My phone buzzes in my pocket.

"Fuck, what now." I mumble. It's a text from Shai.

Please calm down, don't hurt yourself, please, we need to talk ok? -Shai

I forgot how thin these walls are, she probably heard everything. I walk to my room and lay down, not caring about changing into sweats. I lay down and cry, I didn't want to tell Shai I love her. But I do, I love her so much that when she said Nahko hadn't checked up on her I got mad. If Shai was mine I would've checked on her every second I got to. Heck I still would do it now, but I know that she didn't want to make things complicated with me and Ruth.

Ruth. Shit. What do I tell Ruth?

I can't tell her what I told Shai. I don't know what to do. I've been wanting to break it off with Ruth, but then Shai and Nahko started dating and then what's the point, I'll never have Shai.

I don't know how long it takes for me to fall asleep but I eventually cry myself to sleep.

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It's around 3:15am when I wake up from a horrible pain in my hand. As I look down at the pain I grunt. My hand is all swollen and purple. Hopefully nothing is broken, that would mean I can't do scenes in the movie, I don't think Four ever breaks his hand.

I get up and go to the bathroom to check on my hand, to tend to it I guess you could say. I wrap a wrist wrap around it, I don't know why I had a wrist wrap but it came in handy I guess. I also take some ibuprofen to decrease the pain and swelling.

I try to lay back down but I can't. I get up and decide to write Shai a note to slip under her door.

Dear Shai,
I know that I said that I loved you, turns out I do, a lot actually. Everything about you is perfect, your laugh, your personality, you yourself is perfect. God Shai I've loved you from the start but I know you'll never love me like that. You have Nahko an well I have Ruth........ Please don't let what I said ruin our friendship. I love you to much to loose that.

Sincerely, Theo

As I finish writing the letter I step out of my apartment and slip it under her door. I really hope I don't loose her.

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A/N

I'm soooo sorry for the short chapter but I really just want to get to a certain point. In the next few chapters they will get longer. Ok I gotta go🍍

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