Love and War (A Clace Fanfic)

Chapter 8

Jace's POV
Seeing Clary, pregnant made this extremely hard to do but I had to tell her. But how could I? I know if I tell her I'll be ripping away any happiness that she is feeling. It was too late to back down now, besides it had to be done I have to go and there is nothing I can do about it. It almost feels like the world is punishing me for leaving Clary in the first place.
Clary's POV
It was now the time that everyone was congregating, meeting up with old friends or lovers. Some of these Shadowhunters were not even from this area, but people still thought it was a great idea to break out the booze and party. Which I could see the appeal to, but the party was not that fun without the booze. I slipped outside to escape the raging party. I did not know that Shadowhunters even had this in their system. Almost every Shadowhunter that I had met was uptight and the idea of fun was foreign to them. I heard the creak of the door and turned to see who it was. Jace. "Hey". He said, he sat by my side nearly falling on the way down. I chuckled, "You ok there." "Yeah" He said grimly. I gave him a quizzical look. "Clary we need to talk." "Are you having 2nd thoughts?" "No no of course not." "Then what?" I asked. "I'm leaving again." My heart dropped. I was in complete shock, I felt like the world was working against me. "But but no one else is going back" I stammered through my tears. "I was recruited to go I leave-" "Wait a second, hold on you chose to do this." He stared at me and I could see the pain in his eyes. "I didn't have a choice.... I" I saw his tears glimmering in the moonlight, running down his face. "What do you mean you didn't have a choice, there is always a choice." I cried out angrily. "How could you do this, why would you do this ." "Clary." He choked out. " I'm sorry." "You're sorry, well so am I. I'm sorry that our child might not have a father because you chose to go fight in a war that has ended." I sobbed. "It's not that simple." "Oh it's not ok, so stop me if I'm wrong. You chose to go fight in this battle, you chose to leave me here, to leave us here, you chose a path that might end up killing you!" I screamed out in rage. After that I could not take anymore, I pushed the doors open in anger and stormed away, feeling the hot tears fall from my eyes.