Jayne's Bakery

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Ring Ring Ring 

"Hello"

"Rory what has been happening I'm scared"

"..."

"I've been looking for you for 3 weeks now. I've been calling and texting you non-stop, I've had everyone in the bakery on the look out in case you came in I even went to your film class. I couldn't find you and it damn nearly broke me"

"Will I'm so sorry I wasn't thinking I just got the call and left London."

"What call? What happened?"

"My Mum... she... she has... I mean had"

"Rory what are you talking about?"

"Cancer. My mum had cancer." 

"Oh Rory, I'm so sorry"

"It's okay, it's not something that you could have changed."

"..."

"Can I... um, can I tell you about her?"

"Yes, God Rory of course you can."

"Are you sure? I haven't really told anyone before."

"Then I'm honored."

"Okay... Oh. Well, it started last year, I was a fresher and was all getting used to everything here in London when I got a call from my dad."

"He said that Mum hadn't been feeling too great, that she had this pain in her side and back so he took her to the doctor. He said it could just be an appendicitis but he sent her for a scan- you know- just in case." Rory felt her throat tightening as the words left her mouth. 

"It's okay I understand, you don't need to tell me more if it's too hard."

He could tell she was on the brink of tears and it felt like someone had reached into his chest and was slowly squeezing all his vital organs. It hurt hearing the pain in her voice. It hard so bad.

"No, please, let me finish. If I don't tell you now I don't think I could try again."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes. Please. This is important to me"

"Okay then. Just know you can stop whenever."

"Um... So the scan. She went for the scan and found out she had stage 3 ovarian cancer."

"It was so far developed. I don't know how we hadn't realized, but my mum was never one to make a fuss. For all we knew she might have been in pain long before she even mentioned it to my dad."

Her voice had this bitter sweet quality, one that made Will's chest ache.

"I must have been in my 4th or 5th week at UCL. All I remember was I hadn't been there long at all when I got the call. I don't really remember much from the call just a few words. But... but those words changed my entire world."

"I remember when I first got told it was terminal. I wanted to change university, come closer to home you know just- be there. But mum wouldn't allow it. It hurt so bad Will. It hurt so hard being away from her."

She was crying now but nothing would stop her from getting this off her chest.

"So I went to visit every chance I got. Kings cross station became my second home. I'd be there most Friday nights to go home before coming back Sunday afternoon. I hated the travel but I had to. I had to see her."

"I understand it would kill me to be away from my family if that happened."

"Yeah, the thing is-"

"yeah?"

"The thing is we all knew that she didn't have long left. The doctors liked to remind us every chance we got but when it happened. I wasn't ready... I guess the childish part of me refused to believe that my mum could... d... d... be gone"

"Oh Rory it's alright."

"Its's not Will, If everything was alright I would be sitting in my dorm room, on the phone to my perfectly healthy mother discussing my ridiculous crush on you!"

"..."

"...shit."

"wait Rory!"

BEEP BEEP BEEP 

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ayyyyy guess who's back from Croatia. me that's who. 

anyway that was a emotional rollercoaster am-i-rite? 

also can i just say a massive thank you to you guys. it was amazing to log in after getting back, (ok 2 days after i got back, i was mighty ill...) and seeing that this story has broken 200 reads makes my lil' heart burst with love for y'all. i know its not alot in the larger picture but to me its straggering and i am proper chuffed. so thank you so much mes amis x