The Bakery Girl // n.h

Chapter 11: First drama?

Bel’s P.O.V:

As I knocked on Havi’s front door, I started regretting calling her because now they’ll throw loads of questions and that’s not what I want or need right now. I waited nervously, my legs still weak from the past actions that happened a while ago. My breath increased as I started thinking of Niall. His smile, his laugh, his stupid jokes. Is it wrong to say that I miss him so much? Yes, because he broke your heart. My inner voice answerd. All of this is as complicated as it will ever be, does he love me or not? If not, than why is he wasting his time making me go through hell?

“Hi Bel!” I was snapped out of reality by Liam standing beside the door way.

“Oh, hi. Can I please come in?” I asked, trying to smile.

“Sure, your always welcomed” He said, a sad smile painted on his lips. Sad? I wonder what happened.

“Thanks” I spoke as I followed him to the living room. Lou, Havi and Mila were all there although they didn’t look all happy. What’s wrong with them?

“Hi” I spoke, but it came out more as a whisper. Havi looked at my direction, her eyes had black bags and she looked so stressed out.

“Oh hi..” Havi answerd, a forced smile plasterd on her lips, forced? This isn’t the Havi I know.

“Is something wrong here?” I asked, Lou gave me a weak smile then turned away.

“No, everything’s fi—“ Mila spoke but was cut by Lou.

“Actually, there’s something—“ Lou spoke but was cut by Havi.

“Lou! It’s to much pressure in such a short time—“ Havi was cut by Liam.

“It’s her brother and she haves the right to know!” Liam protested, and a lump suddenly closed up my throat.

Here’s something about my brother. His name is William, he’s 17 years old and he’s still with his gurdiance, my Aunt Emma. I haven’t seen him for the past 3 years since I left for college, yet I haven’t lost contact with both of them. I would still call them but these past 2 weeks have been more than hell to me. I won’t say I forgot to call them but I was really stuck into this drama that just started. He’s really handsome and his hazel-golden eyes are just gorgeous. He sure did inherited the eye color from mom. I miss him, so much I’m ready to book a ticket right now and fly back to California just to see him. Yes, he lives in California with my Aunt and her husband Ethan. They moved their a year after the tragedy that happened. Believe it or not, but William is crazier than Lou. He’s more hyperactive and he’s always smiling. Just like me before it happened, a voice in my mind spoke. I changed, so what? Everyone change, it’s nothing new.

“What about William?” I asked eventually hoping for a response.

“He… He have bone cancer” Liam spoke, his lips formed a line as he lowerd his head. The moment those simple words left his lips, I felt like everything around me is dead. I felt like there isn’t any air left for me. My head was getting lighter and lighter and my eyelids got heavier, not again I thought. After I felt that I’m out of air, everything turned pitch black.

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“William, wait!” I shouted for him to stop running. It was past noon and we were going out for a walk on the beach, but William here decided to do a race but I’m too old to race him.

“Your too old to catch me!” He said with sheer happienes, I guess he really is having the time of his life.

“Am not!” I argued, he just laughed as he continued running. I wasn’t old but I was too lazy to run, apparently I’m not the athlete type.

“C’mon! Stop being a lazy bum” He spoke, a completely amused look was painted on his face. He have not just said that.

“Pardon me?” I asked, raising my eyebrow at him which just made him more amused.

“You’ve heard me” He spoke, as he gave me a game-on look. Say goodbye ‘cause game over.

“Payback time” I shouted as I sprinted after him, laughing while he ran and ran. I’m not gonna loose this, I remided myself.

“Catch me!” He stucked his tongue out making funny faces, that’s utterly immature for a 14 years old. Look who’s talking, my inner voice reminded me. Me? I’m as mature as Liam, even more. Yeah right, my inner voice spoke again, shut up would you?

“Prepare for your death!” I shouted as I continued running after my brother, I was about to catch him when he fell making me stop dead in my tracks.

“Are you ok?” I asked quickly as I helped him stand back on his feet once again.

“Yeah, I just stepped on my shoe tie and fell” He spoke, a soft smile painted on his lips.

“Here, let’s take a rest, shall we?” I asked as I made him sit on the seashore, the sun reflecting with the sea as the sand turned golden.

“We shall” He chuckled as we sat down, admiring the breathtaking sea view from our places. This is the first time I really pay close notice to the sea, never have I thought Californa’s ocean would be as inspiring as it is in front of my eyes at this moment.

“It’s amazing, huh?” He asked, a weak smile played on his lips.

“Yeah, thinking of something?” I asked as I rested my head on his shoulder.

“Mom and dad” He admitted, and I felt guilt wash over me.

“You miss them, don’t you?” I asked as I wrapped my arms arround his right arm.

Laughing, “Hell yeah! Even worse than the time where I missed her strawberry cake while she had a meeting in Florida” He smiled a small smile, a smile that showed a spark of hope. A spark of bravery and trust.

“I’m sorry, I really am..” I said, a hint of fading happiness clear in my voice.

“For what?” He said as he gave me a curious and confuesd look.

“If I wasn’t there, If we haven’t gone to the restraunt, none of that would’ve happened..” I spoke, lowering my head and not baring to look him in the eyes or say a word.

“Bel, look at me” He instructed, I hesitated for a second but then obeyd. As my eyes met his hazel-golden eyes, a picture of mom while baking her famous strawberry cake flashed through my mind. I wanted to cry, I wanted to scream and I wanted to die because this is all just my fault and I’m gonna live through hell my entire life. I will try to  forgive myself for this, I reminded myself, little did I know that I never will.

“Bel, it wasn’t your fault. You aren’t part of their death, they died because God made them die at that time. Either by murders or accidents, people die everyday but that’s just life. You’re here to grow up and fulfill your needs and wishes, after you’ve reached the top of happiness and finished your purpose goals in life, then it’s time to say goodbye and leave. Sure, I do miss them but I know we’re gonna reunite in heaven. So don’t worry, God got it coverd for us” He smiled, and happy tears started rolling down my cheeks. He sure knows a lot about happiness, life and experiences. As he always say, there’s never a shortcut to happiness.

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Hi! Hope you like this chappy J

P.S: Guys, to whoever reads Take Me As I Am and is currently reading the squeal, I’m thinking of deleting the squeal and my other fanfic Spark. It’s just so much pressure on me following is the Quarter tests that will start on 14/11 following by other personal stuff, I think I’m gonna die! Tell me if I should or not because it was kinda a stupid move to start 3 fanfics at the same time.

Until next time,

Dana x