The Bakery Girl // n.h

Chapter 25: Flustered News

Bel's P.O.V:

I'm fine, I repeated in my mind. But really? How can I be? This week was stressful and frowns were the only thing I'd wear. It was surprising, and it still hurt me the fact that she's gone. She wasn't just a friend, nor she was just a best friend. She was my sister, my second mother. I loved every bit of her. But now, when she isn't here beside me anymore, I can't help but feel regret. Why have I ignored her all these years? She had nothing but loved me and I pushed her away. If only time could just turn back, I'd take her in my arms and never loose my grip. I should've been there for her, but instead, I was to busy moping around and crying myself to sleep.

It's true though. True love does open doors. It opened doors of happiness, doors of feelings and doors of reality. As soon as I found true love, my eyes snapped open and I realized that with just a little love, something's can change. If only I found true love earlier, everything will be alright. She'd be here, with me, holding my hand, and telling me everything's gonna be okay. If only Niall stepped into the picture a few years earlier, everything would be fine.

But I'm grateful in the end. Niall did came into the picture, and although it was late, I'm still grateful. If it wasn't for him, I swear I'd be crying my eyes out till today. Yes, she's gone. But she still has a place in my heart. She's here, beside me, telling me it's gonna be okay. The only difference is that she's far away, and although I'll miss her everyday, I'll always keep in mind that she'll be here, beside me and telling me everything's gonna be okay.

And when I thought everything's gonna be okay, that'll never come true, anytime soon. The FBI came into this already fragile looking picture, and demanded for us to enter the "witness protection program" for our safety. They want us to change our identities, travel out of the country and temporarily live in Greenland for a while. Either until they find out who they are or until they make sure it's safe to come back. But I think it's for the best, I'm not ready to risk my friends, boyfriend or even my brother's life for this.

I'm scared. Frightened actually. This isn't something that happens everyday, not something that I could call 'normal'. But the question that haunted me for a while now was, why did this crisis started a few weeks after I met Niall? How is Niall a part of it? Is he even a part of it?

I had to push those thoughts away because I had to tell Niall. If I didn't tell him, I can't live risking our relationship. So I picked up the phone, dialed his number but sadly It went directly to voice mail.

"Hey this is Niall, I'm not available now because I'm either climbing the Alps or exploring the earth core" He pause and let out a cheery laugh that makes me smile brightly.

"But you can leave a message and I'll be sure to answer it later, thanks" He said and I breathed out, ready to speak the hardest speech of my life.

"Hey Niall, it's Bel... I called to tell you that I'll be away for a while. And by away, I mean outside of country. I'm sorry I haven't told you the news earlier, you had the full right to know. I love you, you know that right? You bought a smile to my face, after years of frowns, you had the ability to make me truly smile once again. So I have to thank you for that, thank you. Thank you for making me realize that life can be changed if we want to. Thank you for making me smile when I didn't want to. Thank you for telling me everything's gonna be okay when they weren't. Thank you for being there. Thank you for loving me. And thank you for caring about me. You made blossom, like flowers in springs. You showed me I was worth it when I know I wasn't. You told me I'm beautiful when I know I am not. But overall, I just wanna thank you, for everything. I love you, goodbye" Tears threaten to fall down, but I tried my best to hold them back.

No more tears. No more crying. I need to find myself, and to do that, I have to risk myself for my beloved ones.

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Dana x