And I'll Be Me

E L E V E N

"Just, go out there and dance. Have fun." She had told me.

Fun is the one thing I wasn't having. Some boy sat down next to me. He ordered a drink. While he was waiting he kept glancing at me. The bartender handed him him drink after a while.

"Hey." He said. I glanced at him, he was gorgeous. He had piercing blue eyes and spiked up blackish brown hair.

"Hey." I replied.

"My name's Roy. Roy Harper." He said, holding out his hand for me to shake.

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"Shaylea." I said, shaking his hand.

"So Shaylea, what are you doing over here alone?" Roy asked.

"I came with a friend. She.brought her boyfriend and pretty much left me alone. She told me to go out there and dance and have fun. She brought me here because she wanted me to meet someone. So much for that." I said, looking into my half empty glass.

"Well, do you want to dance?" He asked, holding out his hand for me to take.

"I don't know how to dance." I admitted.

"Do you want to just hold hands and sway?" He asked.

"Hmm... I don't know you. How do I know you won't kidnap me or something?" I squinted my eyes at him.

"Come on, do I look like a kidnapper?" He said, raising his eyebrows.

"True." I said, taking his hand.

We walked to an empty spot on the dance floor. I saw Iris in the distance, she gave me a thumbs up and I blushed.

"Blushing already?" Roy said.

"Its just my friend over there." I said, looking away from Iris to him.

Roy turned his head over and looked at Iris.

"Who is she?" He asked.

"For a pretty face, you sure ask a lot of questions." I said.

"Just met and I already have a nickname." He laughed.

"Anyway, she's my best friend. Her names Iris." I said. I tried not to look into his eyes, they were too tempting, and dreamy.

Roy and I talked for a little while longer, while swaying on the dance floor. Then, Iris walked up to us.

"Shay, it's about time to go. You coming?" She asked.

"Yeah. It was nice talking to you, Roy." I smiled, pulling myself away from him. "Bye."

I turned to walk away But he stopped me.

"Hey, could I get your number? I'd like to get to know you better." He said.

"Sure." I smiled wider. He pulled out his phone and I added on my number.

I walked outside with Iris and climbed into her car. She started the car and headed to my house.

"Iris do you want to sleep over tonight?" I asked.

"Sure!" She replied excitedly.

"You can just borrow some of my clothes." I told her.

I thought of Roy. He was a really nice guy and we connected. I could probably grow to love him one day too. But, I didn't get that feeling with him like I did Barry when I first met him. I know people say you never get over your first real love, but it was different with Barry. I think I'm in love with him.. a friend once told me, "don't fall in love, there's just too much to lose." I guess they were right. Barry has stolen my heart, and my soul, and I have no idea how to get them back. All of this was just too much. Roy is amazing, and yes, I do like him. But, could I really grow to love him? I'm not sure. Barry is always on my mind, messing with my head. My thoughts are all jumbled up right now, I don't know what to think anymore.