I'll Go Down With You

Chapter 23

Allie

I didn't know what to think as Kellin stands there, looking at me expectantly.

"Why'd you want to talk?" He asks, looking me in the eyes. I gulped. Why did I want to talk? Did I just want to see his face one more time before we both decided to never talk again? Kellin inched closer to me, and I gulped again. My head pounded, and I felt like retching. Except they pumped my stomach, so I couldn't throw up anything.

"I've missed you, Allie." He whispers. He inches closer and closer, and he lays his lips on mine.

I've missed him so much that my brain doesn't even say anything as my hands inch up and wrap my arms around him. I can tell how much he's missed me too by the way he holds me when we kiss. When I pull away, panting, he looks at me.

"I've missed your lips, Allie." It's not just something an exe says to an ex girlfriend, it's something an exe says when they want to get back together with his exe girlfriend. I gulp, taking it all in.

Do I even want Kellin back? What happens if he cheats on me again? Something in my mind told me he would never make that mistake again. I break down into tears, not knowing what to think.

"I've missed you too, Kellin, but, I, I can't go back to that-" I say breathlessly. He looks at me desperately.

"Allie, we can make things better. I'll always-"

"Kellin! I'm not over the fact that you cheated. I love you with all my heart and soul, but I just can't." I say, choking on the tears that refuse to come.

He stares at me before nodding.

"Let me kiss you one more time." He pleads. I nod, and he kisses me passionately. I kiss him back, letting his tongue enter my mouth. We sit like this, and when I finally can't breath, we both pull away.

"We got invited to a wedding, by the way." Kellin says as he gathers his shit to leave.

"What do you mean-"

"Vic. Vic Fuentes? Real good buddy of mine. Yeah, he invited me and you to the wedding. Or at least Keyona did." He rambles on and on.

"Whose-"

"Fiancé. That's his fiancé."

I glare at him playfully, and he laughs.

"Sorry I just had to see an Alexandra king smile before I left you. You know, we should go together. No malicious intent involved. Unless, you, want to." He whispers. I gulp. Maybe I should go with him. And maybe we could get back together. I can't just go with him though, and not develop feelings. How could you not fall for Kellin? I stared at him, and I sat up in bed, all the cords and such attached to me still. I looked into those deep ass eyes, and I realized I made a mistake to begin with. How did I not want him back?! I kiss him suddenly, and he smiles through the kiss.

"I'm guessing you've changed your mind." He whispers breathlessly. I nodded, and he kisses me again, this time him scooting on the bed with me.

Things turned intense five minutes into our make out session, and I guess I can considered us "back on".

"Don't you, ever forget about me." Kellin whispers.

"I never will, and I never have." I whisper, kissing him.