Love and Death

Start Over

I have been searching for your touch

Unlike any touch I've ever known

I'm broken down and all alone..

Why does the one you love become the one that makes you wanna cry?

I never wanna feel this way again.

Tor realize what we used to have...

We don't have it any more..

Talk about our future like we had a clue

Never planned that one day I'll be loosing you..

See.. I would go through all this pain..

Thinking about us.. Me and You..

What's it gonna be?

So I traveled down back that road.

I wish I have a time machine.

Turn it all back.

I don't want to face any rejections.

Please help me.

Damn, I tossed and turned around I just can't get to sleep.

I have to rest . Get some sleep.

Sometimes I just wish my brain is like a laptop.

SHUT it down every time I want.

Sleep it when I want to take a rest.

RESTART everything.

Back Up and RESTORE everything.

What the heck am I thinking..

Random thoughts again.

I just can't help it.

I kept thinking and thinking of Eugene.

The way the tips of his finger touch my skin makes me tingle over with joy.

The way his presence felt when he's too close to me..

That warm feeling.

That feeling when you lay down beside the one you loved.

The feeling when you rest your head in his chest.

You can hear every heart beat. That you know that only beats for you.

He once said "My heart, it beats only for you. And it will always be."

And I will say "My heart is yours. FOREVER."

When he kisses me. It's like the whole world stops.

Like you're in a slow motion or something.

Or like you're in a movie, then suddenly you can hear a soft background music playing.

He's every kiss is always felt like the FIRST KISS.

Every time he does that. It felt like it was the first one.

Just to make sure there won't be a last one.

But sad to say, that Last one.. Might've been the LAST.

That LAST CHANCE...

Now I have to start over again.

We have to start from the beginning.

I can still remember that time when he first said that he loved me.

I was all home alone. My mom was on a business trip. So I have to stay home.

Then he called.

"Hey beautiful."