Amnesia

T H I R T E E N

E S M E

"Esmeralda Rosalia Irwin! What are you talking about?" Ashton said, well yelled. I looked at him and stared at the guys for a sec.

"I'm sorry." I pushed past them and ran out of the house. I ran to the closest park and sat on the swings.

Dude these wood chips look so weird. What the crap? Why am I thinking this?

"Esme" I heard a raspy voice. I didn't react, I continued to swing slowly. The voice came again and I rolled my eyes.

"Go away." my swing stops and Luke stands in front of me.

"Why didn't you tell us? Or even me? I thought you trusted me. Esme what did I do to make you stop tru-"

"Luke. I love you so much you are like a brother to me. I trust you so much. I just- Calum was the one who stopped the guy. I promise I will tell you everything, but I'm too scared. I don't want to see it in my head. It was scary." I say after cutting him off with a hug.

He didn't let go of me. He kept me in his arms.

"It's okay." I had my head rested on his chest and I could hear every best of his heart, and every breath he took. I smiled and just let him hold me.

It felt comforting to know that I had someone who wouldn't care if I kept a secret and would still be there for me no matter what.

"Let's go home." he says quietly. I shake my head.

"Why not?" he asks pulling away. I shake my head and sit on the ground.

"Okay. We can sit here for a bit." I nod and he sits beside me.

"So you and Calum?" he asks looking around.

"Um... No... I mean, I like him.. But nothing's gonna happen. He doesn't like me that much. I don't think at least." I reply quietly.

"You don't know that." Luke mutters. I nod and just watch people around us. "I need to get to your house. Ashton is gonna drive me home 'cause I love so damn far away." I nod and he stands up.

"I can make it home later Luke. I'll be fine." he nods and starts walking back to my house. I sat alone in the park.

-

It started raining so I stood up and started going home.

It started pouring and I groaned out loud. I kicked rocks along the sidewalk and mumbled random shit to myself.

"Need a ride?" I jumped and turned to see Ashton in the car.

"Ashton leave me alone." I continued to walk and he drive at the same speed.

"Get in. Please Esme." I rolled my eyes.

"Esmeralda please." I finally have in and stomped over to the passenger side.

"I hate you." i muttered as I buckled. He didn't say anything in response and started the car.

"No. Wait, Ash I didn't mean it like that. I'm sorry i-"

"Just stop." I didn't.

"No. I Just want you to know that I didn't mean it Ashton. I don't hate you. I could never hate you after everything you've done for me. I'm not that rude." I let out. As soon as we got home I got out of the car and headed up to my room.

I was still soaking wet, so I changed my clothes and put my hair up. I climbed into bed and fell right to sleep. No food, nothing. I just went to bed.

-

"Esme. Time for school." I woke up to a splitting headache and nodded. I can't miss school, well That's what my mom says.

I get up and put on my uniform.

I trudged downstairs with my hair in a messy bun and my phone in my back pocket.

"Let's go!" Ashton calls out. I wince at his loudness and go to the car. Once we are all in he starts playing music.

"Ashton please turn that down." he didn't listen.

"Ash." I begged. He ignored me.

"Ashton Fletcher Irwin turn the damn radio down!" I yell. He looks over at me and rolls his eyes. He turns down the radio and I sigh.

"I'm sorry." i mutter. He didn't respond. The car ride was long and silent. Harry and Lauren were quiet. I was silent, you couldn't even hear my breathing. Ashton lightly tapped on the steering wheel.

As soon as we got our school I got out and ran inside.

"Hi Esme." I turned to face Calum and hugged him.

"What's wrong?" he asks putting his arms around me.

"I can't do this anymore. Ashton is mad at me. My head hurts, my throat burns, I have the chills and I wanna disappear. I hate this. I hate Ashton being mad at me. I want to talk to him. I want my brother to laugh and smile with me." I cry into his chest.

"Shh it's okay" Calum whispers. He rubs my back and I I keep my face hidden in his chest. He continues to rub my back and kissed the top of my head.

I sighed and looked up to him.

"I-Thank you, Calum." he shows a small smile and I go to my locker.

Luke was at his locker and he lightly punched my arm.

"Hi." I said quietly. He smiled and turned to his locker.

From: Lucas-Lucas
To: Me

Awww you guys are cute <3
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7:35 am <Read>

I looked at the photo.

"Luke. Don't ever show anyone this. I don't want people thinking we are dating." I tell him before shutting my locker. He smirks and nods.

I roll my eyes and head to first period.

Right before I got to first I got pulled pulled and faced Calum.

"I can't do this anymore. Esme... I really like you. I would like to know if you would like to be my girlfriend?" he asked nervously. He scratched the back of his neck and I laughed.

"Yes Calum." He smiled and gives me a hug.

"I'm glad you said yes." he grabs my hand and we go into first.