Amnesia

F O U R T E E N

E S M E

        Once we got to lunch Ashton started walking over to the table and I immediately got up.

"Ash. Please" my voice came out and it cracked. He gave me a dad look and put his stuff down. He wrapped his arms around me and I smiled.

"Hey guys... Oh..." I looked to Calum and he smiled.

"Good." he said sitting down. I sat next to him and tasked too the others. Calum kept offering me good but I denied it. He held my hand and gave it a squeeze.

I rested my head on his shoulder and he kissed it.

"Ew she is such a slut. He doesn't even like her." I rolled my eyes. They were quiet about it and I'm pretty sure I was the only one who heard.

"You okay Esme?" Luke gave me a worried look and I fake smiled and nodded.

"Calum. When did you ask her out? I'm so lost." Michael says causing the boys to laugh. I looked to Calum and he explained it. It wasn't huge, but I liked it. It was cute.

Ashton seemed to be okay with it, but I want to make sure.

Once lunch was over Calum walked me to my next class.

"Bye Cal-Pal" I kissed his cheek, he smiled hugging me.

"Bye Es" Es? No one calls me that... Sounds like yes or is haha.

I took a seat in the back.

-

"Calum!" I yelled running over to him. I gave him a hug and he returned it.

"Hi Esmeeeee" he giggled. I laughed and looked at his face.

"I'm so short" I snorted. He laughed and shook his head.

"That's okay. I like it." he kisses my nose and I blushed.

I intertwine out fingers and he smiled.

"I've waited to be with you. I really like you"

we both wear a smile and he takes me to my final class.

-

I laid on my bed and stared at the ceiling. Michael and Cal sat in my room with me, waiting for Ashton and Luke to come over.

They wanted to spend time with me. I pucked up a small ball on my bed and started tossing it up and catching it. I repeated this until Luke crashed through my room and junped on me.

"Hemmings!" I screeched. He lets out a loud laugh, causing me to laugh and sit up.

"Don't do that again." Ash sat next to me and smiled widely.

"what Ash?" I asked confused. I tilted my head slightly at my brother and he just smiled.

"You are so happy now. I missed it. I'm glad this you is back." my smiles drooped a bit and he nodded.

"Was I that bad?" I asked. He shook is head. The other started standing up, as if expecting something to happen.

"Esme. I-" I wuickly stood up and went into the bathroom.

I sat against the door just thinking.

"Esme." I looked up to see Calum.

"You were very different weeks ago. I barely know this you. The other you is scary, I am afraid you will do something." He says quietly. He places his hand on my knee and I quickly push it away, remembering what had happened only a little ago.

He looked at me with a sad expression.

"I was I could just wake up one day with Amnesia. I want to forget every bad thing. I want to forget the stupid little things that ruined my days. I just don't want to remember." I blurted out, tears stinging my eyes. "I want to forget everything. I want to be happy all the time. I don't to be happy only when I am with you, then sad at night. I want happiness all or most of the time." I say quieter.

Calum just takes me into his arms without a word and silently rocks me back and forth.

"I'm not sure how I ended up with such an insanely beautiful and amazing person. But I did it. I ended up with you."