Secret Thoughts (Yoonmin) [#wattys2017]

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Chapter two: The moment Yoongi began to hear the voices, all the time

Sometimes Yoongi would hear voices.

They came every once in a while, on those days when he couldn't deal with the emotional pain and it would hurt so much that he could barely stand up.

At first he couldn't fully pretend he was okay and the members had actually began to worry about him, but as time went by he began to deal with the pain on his own, and had finally found a way to continue with his life. It had been hard but eventually it all seemed to go back to normal.

(Even though at nights he would cry himself to sleep and when things went really bad he would find himself throwing up silently while the others were sleeping)

He hated feeling the way he did, especially because he was feeling that way because of a broken heart and he couldn't believe one person had fucked up his life so bad. Still, every time he saw Taehyung he couldn't stop himself from feeling like someone had stabbed him right in the heart.

The worst was that the younger would always give him one of those famous square smiles completely ignoring the effect he had on the older.

You shouldn't dream about him
You're too ugly

And he believed it, he really did.

^^

Yoongi was starting to get desperate. He couldn't find his phone charger and he needed it to download some files from his phone to his computer. He had look everywhere, but the charger was nowhere to be seen.

Leaving his room he decided to ask the other members if they've seen it, maybe one of them had took it without his permission and had forget to return it. That had happen before, so Yoongi wouldn't be surprised.

He asked Seokjin first, but his roommate had no idea where it was. Jungkook was almost as oblivious as Seokjin and Namjoon wasn't at the dorm so Yoongi couldn't possibly ask him.

As much as he wanted to avoid Taehyung he ended up asking the younger. He, who was about to leave for a small date with Hoseok, had opened his eyes in realization and had told him he had it in his room. Yoongi had thanked and after Taehyung had apologize and said goodbye, Yoongi walked towards the room.

He was actually praying for the room to be empty, but as he opened the door he was greeted by the sound of their own music being played through the speakers of Jimins' computer. The younger turned around in shock when he heard the door being opened. He relaxed once he saw it was Yoongi, and gave him a small smile in apology.

"Sorry, I didn't know who it was" Yoongi only nodded and Jimin went back to look at the screen. Yoongi stared at the younger in curiosity, and before he could stop himself he walked towards Jimin's bed and sat.

"What are you looking at?" He asked, Jimin looked at him.

"I.. Like to read the comments in our videos"

"Yeah? And what do they say?"

"Ah... Some praise our choreography, others praise our looks, some are the armys sending us love, and there's always the ones saying we should die" Yoongi gave him a small (surprisingly genuine) smile.