Secret Thoughts (Yoonmin) [#wattys2017]

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Chapter nine: That one time Jimin overheard Yoongi talking to his psychologist

There were two things Yoongi hated about this whole situation. One was that he hadn't been able to be with his group mates for a very long time. The other, was that he had to attend different sessions with some crazy ass psychologist that thought he understood everything he had gone through.

The very first session had been a complete nightmare (for both of them). Yoongi hadn't cooperate (obviously) and the the doctor simply had no idea what to ask the rapper. It was obvious that the psychologist had no idea what he was doing (he was too young). When Yoongi asked his surgeon why they had assigned him such a naive person the other had simply say it was because they thought Yoongi would feel more comfortable with someone near his age. 

Honestly, Yoongi would have feel more comfortable without having to deal with anyone.

Then again that was basically the only requisite manager nim had put in order for him to be able to perform with the group again, so he had to accept it and deal with it.

It was incredibly hard, and at first Yoongi didn't even tried, but when he dreamt about Jimin he realized how much he wanted to be with the younger without having it to be during the visit hours and so, he obliged himself to try.

When he actually did try the psychologist had been genuinely surprised. It wasn't that Yoongi had talked much but the simple fact that he'd talk made the whole thing and incredible situation.

Eventually their relationship between patient-doctor became a lot more comfortable, and not only Yoongi began trusting he doctor with things that not even he knew he felt but also the doctor began to understand Yoongi a lot better, up to he point could see what Yoongi was feeling or going through before the rapper even told him.

"So tell me Yoongi" said the doctor on one of the sessions. "How are you today"

"I'm fine, I guess" Yoongi said shrugging "a little tired"

"And whys that?"

"I've been working on my music lately, forgot how hard it was"

"But worth it?" Yoongi gave him a small proud smile.

"Definitely worth it" the doctor had smile as well.

There was a small silence in which the doctor had simply stared at Yoongi and saw him smiling (dumb-fully) at his own hands. The doctor laughed and asked.

"Are you in love Yoongi?" The rapper had look at the doctor in shock, as his face turned incredibly red.

"N-no"

"Is that true?" Yoongi looked back at his hands as he slowly shook his head. "Tell me about it"

**

Jimin knew he should've called before he actually went to the hospital to visit Yoongi, but he wanted it to be a surprise, just as it had been for him in his dream. So he had just simply taken some break of their schedule, bought some flowers and taken the bus to the hospital. (Which wasn't his best idea, a lot of fans recognized him almost immediately)

Even so he managed to reach the building, he asked for Yoongi and the receptionist told him to continue, and so he walked inside towards the older's room. But once he reached the door and opened he was greeted by a deep silence. There was no one there, and Jimin was surprised not to encounter with the older.

He stayed stupidly looking at the empty room, not sure of what he was supposed to do now. He didn't want to leave, he wanted to see Yoongi.

"Um- excuse me" it was the voice of a lady, a nurse to be specific.

"Oh uh- " Jimin didn't know how to react so he just moved from the door and let the nurse walk in. "Do you... by any chance know where the patient of this room is?" The nurse nodded.

"The idol? Yes his at the seventh floor with his psychologist"

Psychologist! Of course.

"Uh, which... which room?"

"Think it's... 708"

"Yes! Thank you ma'm!" And with that Jimin ran towards the elevator.

To be honest, Jimin didn't know why he was so damn excited about seeing Yoongi. He just did, and that made him incredibly nervous as well.

Yes, Jimin had had an immense crush in Yoongi ever since he first saw him rap, but before that exact moment while waiting for the elevator, Jimin had never feel as nervous.

When the elevator reached the seventh floor Jimin suddenly felt his legs go weak. He forced himself to walk and when he reached the room Yoongi was supposed to be at, Jimin's breathing began to accelerate.

Calm down, Jimin, it's just Yoongi

Although that didn't work completely it did help him stop trembling and calmly walk to knock the door. However he never did, because the moment he was about to he heard his name.

"Jimin?" But that wasn't Yoongi's voice, right?

"Yeah..." now that was Yoongi "yeah his name is Jimin" he heard Yoongi sigh "he is the most beautiful guy I've ever seen"

"More beautiful than Kim Taehyung?"

"Definitely more beautiful"

"How so?"

"Taehyung is- Taehyung is a very pretty human being, he is a good person, and he is very funny and he always worries about me, even when he fucked up and said what he said"

"But-"

"But Jimin is... perfect. He- worries about others more than himself, and he is always trying really hard. He dances like a god, I love watching him dance, so freely, and so beautiful. I just love his smile. Whenever he smiles I just suddenly forget that I fucking hate this world. I-I don't know I just love every single aspect of him. I know I haven't really said anything but I just.. I like him, a lot"

"A lot?"

"A fucking lot"

Jimin smiled at Yoongi's choice of words, and put a hand gently in the door.

"I like you too, hyung" he said in a whisper. "And a fucking lot too"