Secret Thoughts (Yoonmin) [#wattys2017]

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Chapter Eleven: the night before Yoongi's return-part 2: Yoongi

In all honesty Namjoon never expected Yoongi to call him. Yes, they had been friends for a really long time, and yes, they trusted each other, but it was also true that Yoongi rarely asked Namjoon for his advice. It wasn't something bad, nor something Namjoon would complain about, it was just that Yoongi was like that, he liked thinking and solving his problems on his own. He liked to be independent.

That's why he was so surprised when he received a call from the older in the middle of dance practice.

He answered not because he wanted to be rude with the choreographer but because he was tired as hell, and he used his phone ringing as an excuse to rest at least 5 seconds. He accepted the call and was greeted by a very desperate Yoongi.

"Namjoon?" He had ask, in a whisper.

"Yeah, hyung, is everything alright?"

"I-I can you come, please? I- think I'm going mad..." Namjoon opened his eyes worriedly, the image of a desperate Yoongi flashing in his mind.

"No, no! Stay calm, I'll be right there. Just wait for me, don't do anything crazy" He ended the call, apologized to the choreographer, ignored the shouts of Seokjin and ran out of the building, towards the hospital.

He'd never run so fast in his life.

Once in front of Yoongi's room door, he tried to calm himself down and tried not to look so worried. He didn't knock, though, and instead he opened the door carefully.

He was surprised to find Yoongi siting in the bed, his legs pressed against his chest and his head resting calmly on his knees. Namjoon coughed.

"Hey" he said walking towards the bed. Yoongi nodded saying hi as well. "are you okay? What was that call?"

"I'm- afraid Namjoon" he said "what if- what if I'm not able to keep up with you guys and I ruin the comeback, what if I can't rap in public anymore, what if-"

"Hyung, stop it. Nothing like that is going to happen. You have to calm down"

"I really want to go back Namjoon, I want to perform with you guys and rap and-" Yoongi wasn't looking at him, but he saw the eyes of the older filling with tears.

"We want that too, hyung, we do. You have no idea how happy we are that you're coming back tomorrow, but you can't let your worries control you like this. That's what got you here in the first place" Namjoon didn't sound rude, and even if he did, Yoongi knew he was right.

"Do you- do you really want me to come back?" He asked, his voice shaking. Namjoon laughed.

"Of course, hyung, we all do"

"Even- Jimin?" Namjoon looked at him confused, and was a little taken aback by Yoongi's expression. It was full of fear and worry.

"Yeah, of course, why do you- ask?" Yes, Namjoon wasn't really good at this stuff.

"I like Jimin" he said, and this was the first time Yoongi hadn't hesitated.

"You do?" Yoongi nodded.

"But I think he hates me now, you know, because of all... this" he pointed  at himself and the whole room.

"I don't know hyung, I really don't think he hates you. If anything he's just constantly worrying about you. He cares about you a lot. He even used his free day to come and visit you"

"No he didn't" Namjoon nodded.

"He did, he even took the bus and was attacked by our fans. I think he didn't talk to you because he came exactly at the moment you were with your psychologist"