"Niall, it happened again," she spoke into her phone.
Her head was leaned back against the closet wall with a blanket draped over her. She made sure both the bedroom & closet door were locked before making the phone call. She wiped away the tear that started to stream down her face.
"Oh no, Luce, what happened?"
She shook her head & answered, "The usual. I'm a horrible daughter. I don't appreciate what I have or what my parents do for me. I'm not like Julia. I'm not as smart as her, as athletic as her, as pretty as her, as skinny as her. I'm nothing compared to her."
"Lucy, don't believe any of that. Your parents are just pieces of shit. I'll sneak on over & we can have an ice cream & movie kinda night."
"Okay, I'll see you in a bit Ni." She ended the call & threw the phone across the small closet floor.
"He's just being nice to you," she told herself, "He's just trying to be a caring friend. You're a piece of crap Luce. You know it. You should just die. Yeah, wouldn't that be lovely? If you just downed a bottle of sleeping pills & never woke up? Yeah, that'll be fun. No one would care anyways, why not just try it now? I mean, your parents are gone & your bitch of a sister is out of town so it'll be a little surprise. But what about Niall? He wouldn't care, would he? He doesn't love you. But you just think he does. You're so stupid. He'd never date you. No one would. You're a disgrace to this world. A huge fucking disgrace."
She continued to tell herself how imperfect she was & how no one would ever love her. Before she knew it, she was in her bathroom with the bottle of sleeping pills in her hand.
She screwed the cap off & without a care in the world swallowed every last pill left in the bottle.
Niall was only minutes away from her house when she'd done this. When he arrived, he simply knocked on the door. No reply. He knocked once more. Still, no reply.
Maybe she can't hear me, he thought, maybe she's still in her closet.
He called her phone, hoping to hear her angelic voice again but no one picked up. He pounded his fists against the door. Silence. He knew something was wrong. She couldn't be asleep.
She always had her phone on full volume just incase she'd fall asleep & someone important called. He knew he wouldn't be able to break down the from door because of the deadbolt that was on the other side so he came up with a different plan.
Niall ran around back. He stepped onto the porch & took a shaky breath before slamming his body against the back door. In his surprise, he broke the lock.
He ran through the house, yelling for Lucy. But there was still no reply.
He ran up to her bedroom & saw a note that was neatly placed on her nightstand.
He read aloud, "'Mom, dad, Julia, Niall, or anyone else who reads this, I just want you to know that this isn't what I'd plan would happen. None of this is what I thought it'd be. But I decided that it's time for me to go. It's time for me to leave. God has a plan for everyone's death, right? God knows how we'll die, right? God's the creator & the one who ends his creations, yeh? God expected this. But you didn't. I was always smiling, I was always happy, I was me. But that's what you thought. You thought wrong. I'm not happy. I'm as beat to the ground as anyone can be. The reason for? You should know. Everyone should know. And if you don't then, well, you never knew the real me in the beginning.'"
Niall stopped & wiped a tear that was streaming down his check.
He continued in a shaky voice, "'Whoever is reading this should know that I'm gone. You'll find my body but that's all it'll be. A body. No Lucile. No soul. Nothing. I only wish we could've made things better. But that's exactly what it was. A wish. Only a wish.'"
Her signature was scribbled at the bottom of the paper. Niall shed another tear when he saw the heart above the 'i' in her name she always wrote since they were kids.
"Lucy," he cried to himself.
The letter dropped from between his fingers & he let out a violent scream. He hadn't realized his anger overcoming him until he saw the hole in the wall he had made just seconds ago.
Niall sank to the floor & began to cry a river of tears. 'I loved her. I was going to tell her tonight that I loved her. Why? Why must she leave me now?!' He thought to himself just to build his emotions even more.
He looked up, almost hoping to find Lucy standing in front of him, but saw a picture lying on her night stand. His body stood up & he looked carefully at what he was studying.
He stole it off of Lucy's nightstand & placed it in his pocket before running down the stairs. He ran all over the house, shouting at the top of his lungs hoping for a reply from Lucy even though he knew she wouldn't answer back.
His final stop was at her bathroom. He slowing turned the door knob & looked in to find a horrific sight.
Lucy's body was still & motionless on the ground with a pill bottle clutched in her hand.
"No," he whispered to himself.
"No!" Niall dropped to his knees as the tears violently streamed down his face.
***
As Lucy was lying in her hospital bed, after the night she had swallowed a bottle of pills, Niall walked in & sat beside her.
He looked sad, but relieved that she was still here. He grabbed her hand, she caught a glimpse of his fragile, red wrist & she just looked at him.
He began to cry, & through his tears he managed to say, "We all have our faults darling, our sins & discomforts, but I don't want this world to lose someone as beautiful as you."
She began to cry herself & gripped his hand tighter. "I'm so sorry," she spoke in the softest voice.
"It wasn't your fault princess. Monsters are real, ghost are real too. They live inside us, & sometimes, they win. They may have won this battle, but I know, you'll win the war."
She looked up & into his eyes after another tear quietly slipped down her cheek, "You'll win your war too Ni," her eyes glanced down at the slits made on Niall's wrist, "You'll win it."
Niall & Lucy spoke their feelings to each other the whole day. It seemed they both had fallen for each other but did not have the courage to tell the other. Later that evening Niall & Lucy sneaked out of the hospital without being seen.
The next morning police had found two lifeless, teenage bodies with their fingers entwined together floating in a nearby river.
In between the couple's hands was a picture of a young boy & girl. Both were smiling with happiness as they shared a hug with each other. The children in the picture was made out to be the two teenagers.
Those two teenagers were Niall & Lucy.
Both of their families were very devastated & could not believe the tragedy was real. They both grieved in agony together & could not live another happy day without their child or sibling.
The one thing left from the two was a letter found on Lucy's hospital bed.
'Mom, dad, sister, brother, etcetera. We love you guys. But this life isn't for us. We've both realized we'd be happier in another world where everyone is accepted for who they are no matter how smart, attractive, or sporty they are. We want to be in that world, together. We're sorry if we've ever hurt you & apologize for anything we have ever done to hurt you. We're sorry. It's our time to go now. We'll watch down on you guys when we get there.
Love, Niall & Lucy.'
• THE END •
