while the rumours were
ongoing, bin stood beside
me and protected me.
he protects me when you're
the one who's suppose to.
but you only watched from
afar and let them hurt me.
you watched while they made
remarks about me because
all along you were with yerin.
i'm not surprised anymore
because i can finally say,
you changed cha eunwoo.
"why don't you just end it?
you can't keep letting him
hurt you like this."
bin asked.
"i still love him..."
do i really?
bin's expression suddenly changed.
"i know that we're group
members and that i treat
him as a brother, but i can't
let him treat you like this."
he says.
"he promised."
i give him a weak smile.
lately, yoo ri had announced
that she moved on from bin
and i felt happy for her. she
stated how she'll never stand
a chance with him.
and she said, it was obvious
that we admired each other.
i don't understand why
they tell me so, first my
eomma and now my friends.
later that afternoon i had
come across eunwoo as we
were headed towards the
same class. usually, we'd
have our hands intertwined
but now we stood far apart.
it's sad to reminisce how
close we were back then,
but now we can't even
stand beside each other.
i try to walk ahead of him
but he managed to catch up.
then he took my hand and
he took me to an empty hall.
it was always like that,
he would pull me away
just to get my attention.
it was strangely weird
because i no longer felt
sparks and jitters in my
heart when i came face
to face with him.
"hyunhee, can we talk?"
he stutters.
i glare at him and
pull my hand away.
"and why would i talk to you?"
i ask.
"i want to explain" he says.
"why would i let you,
if you didn't let me."
i say.
i don't know if i still love you anymore.
later that day, school ended.
i took my belongings and
headed out with the nasty
remarks following me.
it hurt not because of
what they say, but because
i'm nothing compared to
what they assume of me.
the weather was rather
gloomy, just like how i felt.
in the midst of walking,
i felt droplets of water
drip on my arm until
it began to get heavier.
