Lost

Twelve

September 26, 2017. Three weeks and six days since Brock fell into his second coma. Two weeks and six days left for him to wake up. Six days since Willow and Savannah were born. Six days since Savannah left.

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Brock still had yet to wake up. He had missed so much already. He didn't know about Savannah, he didn't know that Willow was born. He didn't know that was now a big brother to three little cuties, instead of just two. He didn't know what he was missing.

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Our family was still saddened by the short life Savannah had, but we were all too occupied with Willow to be upset for too long. Willow was an easy baby, but she was only six days old, so it was tough. Mom needed her rest and Willow needed attention. Gavin was depressed because he never got to meet little Savannah and dad kept blaming himself for the loss of the Willow's twin. Daxton was grasping that he was no longer the youngest child and I found myself playing mommy for Daxton and Willow more and more. Our family was falling apart, but we knew we needed to stay together. For Avia. For Brock. For Savannah.

Mom was looking after Willow and Gavin was with Daxton. Dad was editing a video about Willow's birth because the viewers saw mom and dad's announcement video to us. I decided to go into Avia's room again.

I softly opened the door and turned on her lights. I lay down on her bed and grabbed her stuffed elephant she had named Peanut— the first stuffed animal she ever had and I hugged it. It smelled like my sister and it comforted me. And I started talking to Avia.

"Avia..." I said softly, so that no one would hear me, "I miss you. I miss you more and more everyday. I'm trying to be a good big sister to Willow, but it's hard. I always had you by my side. I don't know what to do without you. I'm lost. You were always there for me. Please look over Brock and make sure he's safe. Please take good care of Savannah up in the clouds. Please make sure that Willow is safe. Please don't let anything happen to her. I love you so much Flavia. You're the best big sister the world."

I was crying by now and clutching Peanut, who was now covered in tear stains. I wiped away my tears and took Peanut upstairs with me. I quietly walked into Willow's nursery and saw that she was sleeping. I placed Peanut next to Willow and said, "From the best big sis in the world." and kissed her on the head. I slowly tiptoed out of the room to see dad standing in the doorway.

"Whatcha up to Loofus?" He asked me, careful not to wake the baby.
"Not much. I was just in Avia's room and decided to give Peanut to Willow. It's what she would have wanted," I replied, smiling through my tear stained cheeks.
Dad kissed me on the head, "That was nice of you Em."
He picked me up, noticing the leftover tears on my face and I embraced him in a hug.
"I love you daddy," I said, starting to cry again, nuzzling my head into his neck.
"I love you too Loofus," he answered while rubbing my back, "so much."

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ADORABLE SHAY AND EMMI MOMENT ALERT! Sorry for the extremely short chapter, but short and sweet, right? I hope you guys liked it! I don't think that this book will be much longer, but we'll see. Love you!!! -L