November 26, 2015
Dear MarNella,
Hi. Hindi niyo ko kilala. I won't bother with my name as well, hindi niyo naman mababasa to.
I write because I feel. I write because of and for the people I love. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero napamahal ako sainyo eh, hindi niyo naman kailangang ibalik yung pagmamahal na yun.
When I realized I love you, I meant you both. Not just him, not just her. Dapat pareho kayo. Dapat MarNella.
When I realized I love you, I meant in your ups and downs. I love Marlo even when he's such a bully. I love Janella even when she's feeling insecure about everything.
When I realized I love you, I promised my support. I promised to support your projects. I promised to buy more than one cd, more than one magazine and have it all signed by you. I promised to tweet til my thumbs bleed out, just to show my support.
When I realized I love you, I hated myself. Because I have never felt so strongly for someone I barely know. I watch you on tv, but you could be faking them all.
When I realized I love you, I wanted to cut my ears off. No song passed that didn't remind me of you. An old ballad, a new pop song, an opm classic, heck even a jeje rap song made me think of you.
When I realized I love you, I blamed both my heart and mind. Then I blamed myself. Then I accepted.
I love you both. No matter what.
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Pero lahat ng nagmamahal, nasasaktan. And today marks the day I broke my heart.
It was nobody's fault. I don't blame Elmo for moving nor ABSCBN for pairing him with Janella. No, I don't blame Marlo for not doing anything.
No one is to blame but me. Ako yung nagmahal, ako yung nasaktan.
Lagi ko yung advice sa mga kaibigan ko eh, wag magmahal para di masaktan. Eh ano nangyari sakin diba?
Of course I fought. Pinaglaban ko kayo. Mahal ko kayo eh. Sinisi ko lahat ng pwedeng sisihin. Sinisi ko si Elmo, ang ABSCBN. Pati kayong dalawa sinisi ko kase bakit pumayag nalang kayo basta.
Galit na galit ako. I never accepted the change. I fought against the current. Nasaktan ako eh, may karapatan akong magalit. Saka sino namang may pakialam sakin diba?
Sinasabi ko sainyo. Hindi ko tanggap to. Hindi ko tanggap na may partner na iba si Janella. Kahit pa may girlfriend na iba sa totoong buhay. Kahit pa nga may asawa na eh.
Lalong hindi ko tanggap na baka bukas makalawa may iba na ring partner si Marlo. Hindi ko matanggap na hahayaan niyo nalang mawala yung second chance niyo.
Naniniwala akong MarNella lang ang bagay.
I am selfish like that.
And as if naman may magagawa ako diba?
Sige, goodluck nalang sainyo.
Nagmamahal kahit nasasaktan,
AKO
YOU ARE READING
Ours
FanfictionChoosing to love him, with all that he has done, wasn't part of her plan. Choosing to hurt her, with all that she means to him, wasn't his either. That was before. Now, choosing to love or hurt each other, the decision is theirs.
