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Zombie apocalypse.

Sean wasn't lying when he described the crowd like that. Kase ganun talaga sila.

I know I have been on hiatus for just a few months pero ganun ba nila ako namiss? Or was it because of him?

Probably him.

He was more loved than I am. That I am sure of. Mas magaling kase siya sa fan interactions eh. Me I would just wave and smile but him, he'd treat you like an old friend.

They probably don't know what happened between us. Guess that will split these apart.

Dun sa mga galit sakanya kase iniwan niya ko.

At sa galit sakin kase iniwan ko daw siya.

Now that I have thought of it, di ko na sure kung sino bang una talagang nangiwan saming dalawa. Ako ba nung parang kinalimutan ko siya kase may bago na kong loveteam? O siya ba na umalis nang walang paalam?

Doesn't matter anymore now. Because of it's his fault, then I already forgave him.

And if it's mine, I'd do anything so he'd forgive me.

Ganun kase pag nagmamahal.

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I walked directly to my kitchen when i arrived. Grabe nakakahingal kayang takbuhan ang mga fans. Normally I'd smile and wave at them but now, with they way they wanted to interact with me, NO WAY.  I feel like bloodied meat in tank full of sharks.

Nakakauhaw. I emptied a 500ml bottle in one drink. 

First time.

A lot of first times happened today. More specifically, since he came back.

First time kong manood ng play niya.
First time to argue with someone THAT intense.
First time to see him in such pain. And I don't know how to help him. All I wanted was to release him of the pain he's feeling.

Kaso kasalanan ko nga pala yun.

First time also to meet a child like Marnella. What. An. Experience.
First time din to stand up to Tita Gidget and the management I guess. Pwede naman pala na may conditions din ako bago gawin ang kahit anong project, di tulad dati na sunod nalang ako ng sunod.

Speaking of Tita Gidget, tinanong niya kanina kung aattend daw ba ko. Saan naman?

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Ms. JANELLA Salvador

So ano kayang laman netong envelope, scented pa. Mukhang may ikakasal.

Abaaa. Finally!

Elmo's getting married!

This is what Tita Gidget was talking about. Of course I'll attend his wedding.

We worked as a loveteam so we became friends. That's all, friends. He would tell me his plans when we were taping and I was actually the one who would cover for him when he tells Janine he's on a shoot but really he's planning a surprise for her.

Ganun kasweet yun eh.

He kept my mind from drifting off to him when he left. Focus daw kami. Be professional.

Mas lalo niya kong hinila sa mga paandar niya kay Janine. Pati planning dinamay na ko. Di nalang ako basta nagsisinungaling pag hinanap ni Janine si Elmo sakin. Ako na yung punong abala sa mga surprises. Ako yung naiiwan sa venue para sa last minute preps kasi susunduin niya.

Ako rin naging bridge nila pag medyo nagkakalabuan eh. Number one shipper kaya ako ng dalawang yan.

They helped me take my mind off him, except pag nakakatulog si Moe. That was the one similarity that helped me be close with Moe when we started kase nga pareho sila.

unguarded moments when you sleep
treasured memory that I keep
tell me, tell me, wake me up
this nightmare already drained my cup

A/N. AKA kadramahan ko, pwede wag na basahin. Tenkyu.

Nalungkot ako sa concert ni Marlo for two things. One, di ako nakaattend. Family time, paalis nanaman si Papa for nine months eh. Two, wala si Jea. Hayy beh. Namimiss ko na kayong magkasama oh.

Pero may nasagap akong photo nung workshop nila for ManoPo7. Eeiihh excited!

Although mas marami akong nasagap na di kanais-nais. Hay. Dito nalang talaga ko, dito nalang sa mundo na binuo ko para sakanilang dalawa. Atleast dito masaya sila diba? Magkasama, at pinupush pa ng management.

Such a perfect fantasy.