The Love I Never Had ( Thug Story )

12.

Autumn

Once I got to Jacob house he was flipping out. Lyric had left him again and this time he was breaking down. I ain't never seen no shit like this from Jacob. He was crying and screaming in Lyric's voicemail. I ain't never had a female make me feel like that. Him and Lyric was always meant for each other in my eyes but that other bitch was no good.

Nita was one of those fast bitches that was all about money. She got herself into some trouble by stealing from different companies and once they couldn't find her they automatically came for Jacob being that they were engaged. It was always something funny about that chick. It just bothers me that after doing the shit she did and almost having Jacob killed she would decide to come back into his life to fuck it up.

I was just smart enough to know that she'll definitely pop up when the timing was right.

" Bro I don't know what the fuck to do man, She got my child in her and Nita ...Man I don't know." He paused.

I shook my head at what he said, Why? Because I knew Jacob was a stupid nigga at times. He still had feelings for Nita which made absolutely no fucking sense at all.

" Jacob don't be dumb aight. I can't tell you what to do cause I know you ain't listening to me' just don't be dumb. Cut all this crying shit out my man if she means that much to ya , you'll do right. " I said patting his shoulder before getting up and walking out.

I had my own shit to worry about. My relationship with Cholè is perfect but we still gotta take shit slow for now because I still feel like something is missing. Its no title yet but It's like something is telling me stop don't rush it. I don't want to fuck nothing up I need shit with her to be close to perfect.

I was driving to my momma house just to see how she holding up. She's been rooting for me and Cholè and dying to get a grand baby but I ain't ready for no kids right now. Opening the door to the smell of food momma was sitting in the kitchen.

" Momma I'm home and it smells good up in hea." I walked in the kitchen giving her a hug and kiss on the cheek.

" Hey baby where's Cholè , why you ain't bring her?" She Questioned.

" Momma now you know I can't take Cholè everywhere I gotta life too ya know." I smirked and she slapped my arm.

" Autumn. Don't you disappoint me this time , she's back so don't you go being stupid to ruin everything again." She used her serious tone.

Now I was becoming upset. I wish my mom understood with this lifestyle I'm living it's hard to just settle down with one female you truly care about and want to keep safe. When I have conversations with Jacob he always says sex makes everything better , it makes you fall in love but I been with many females and sex ain't change nothing.

I understand my mom wants me to be like how her and my dad was but I can't and my dad was a cheater he wasn't one hunnid with my momma at times so what she expect from me.
I'm still young and I'm not really ready for what I keep saying I'm ready for.

" Ok momma, can you pack me some food to go I gotta get outta here." I said watching her make plates but I wasn't in the mood to stay.

Cholè

Cheering Lyric up wasn't hard at all. She snapped outta her sad mood which made me happy. Stressing the baby wasn't good and I'm glad she is starting to realize that. I made us some food because I know she would get hungry later. Lyric was sleeping in her room while I sat on the couch waiting for my phone to at least ring but it didn't.

Autumn was on my mind and I missed him like crazy. Instead of me waiting on a text I decided to text him. While waiting for a text back I found a movie to watch. I guess Autumn was too busy for me today because he didn't respond. I hated the fact that of course I liked him and I wanted to be with him and he will never understand that.