A Little More Than Just Friends

Chapter 16: well I'll be damned

Chapter 16: well i'll be damned.

In the weeks that followed my discharge from the hospital, I lost my mind.

I refused to see Mackenzie. I didn't want him around me at the moment. He came every day. I watched him as he'd walk back to his car. He was never angry. I don't think he was feeling anything actually. He just started his car. He saw me once. But I looked away as quick as I could.

"What are you doing!?" Jason screamed as he walked in the room. He ran over to me and yanked me from the window sill. I had been sitting on it with my legs dangling out the window.

"I'm just doing nothing" I told him slowly "absolutely. Nothing" he sighed and closed my window.

"I'm sorry Dee-dee" he said worried "but its the best I can do at the moment. Now come get some food" I followed him downstairs to grab some lunch. I noticed the new DVD system on the wall. It was HUGE!

"Oh so you like my collection?" Jason laughed.

"L-like?! love!" I zoomed over to the rows upon rows of movies. I'd formed a new love. Movies. I watched so many movies. Terminator, valentines day, max Payne, haunted house. You name it i probably watched it. I eventually ran out of movies. Yeah I know. What the heeeell dee-dee!? But yes. I have no life now. I'd come across one of my ballet recitals. My class looked so cute and innocent. Even me. I couldn't help myself.

"Hey Jason" I called

"Yeah?" he replied walking out of kitchen with some popcorn. He'd bought heaps of it for me

"Um... I was wondering if you wanted to watch this with me" I held up the DVD and he smiled.

"I've been waiting for this" he lifted my legs and put them on his lap.

"You know I could just sit normally" I told him. He shook his head

"Kiddo. It's my duty to make sure your ok" he handed me the popcorn.

"Naw you were sooooo cute!" Jason cried. I smiled. I don't mean to be modest... but I was pretty cute

"Wait... what are you doing?" he asked confused. Then I fell off the stage. Jason burst out laughing. He slowed as I got up and continued dancing though.

"What the?!" Jason exclaimed. I just stared at the screen. It was the one Mackenzie told me about. The first one he'd been to.

"What is it?" Jason asked me calming down. I smiled

"What? what is it?" Jason whined. He followed me as I walked to the back of the house. I hadn't been in the room in so long.

"What is. This?" Jason said slowly as he took in the room. I smiled. It looked the exact same. The mirrors that lined the back wall. The mats on the floor and the gramophone. I knew it was old school but I loved it. The right wall was lined with records and CDs. And my personal favourite the ballet bar in front of the mirror. Yes folks. This was my dance studio.

"It's my childhood" I laughed quietly.

When every one asks me; what saved you in your hour of darkness? a few weeks ago I would have probably said Mackenzie. So it came as a surprise even to myself when I answered ballet. Yes. Me. The girl who won the skating competition had crawled out of the ever lasting black pit thanks to ballet. I spent days in there just listening to the aged records and CDs. It took a while to start the dancing though. But once I did... it felt like I'd found a part of me that had been lost.

"Dee-dee. Mackenzie is here" Jason said softly. I don't know what to do. I feel so much better but I still don't think I want to see him... but I want to see if he is ok.

"I... want to talk to him. But I don't want to see him" I stuttered. He smiled and closed the door. Mumbling in the distance then footsteps.

"Delilah?" he asked through the door. It was worse ten I feared. All I wanted was to open the door and crush the life out of him with a hug. But on the other hand I wanted to pummel him beyond belief.

"Mackenzie" I whispered. I couldn't get any higher than that. I heard him sit against the door.

"I'm sorry. I'm so. So. Sorry" he told me sadly. I knew he meant it. But I felt as though he was going to do it again

"I know" I told him quietly

"Then why are you doing this to me?!" he cried. Um excuse me? why was I doing this to him? maybe cause I could have killed myself! that why!

"This was a bad idea" I said almost on tears.

"No. Delilah I'm sorry I didn't mean that" he sighed quickly. What was his problem?!

"Mackenzie. Just please. Go away" I said tiredly.

"N-no Delilah" he banged on the door "listen to me please. Just open the door" I didn't want to. No. I couldn't.

"Delilah please. I need you. As much as you need me" he told me. Usually I would agree with that immediately. But I didn't even know who I was. So what ever I used to do I'm now second guessing.

"Please please. Talk to me" Mackenzie pleaded. But I just ignored him. It reminded me of when we were at the holiday house and he said he wasn't going to leave my door till I talked to him. But one batter of morgana's eyelashes and he was gone with the wind.

"Remember when we were little and it was the first day of prep. You cried and cried because you didn't know where I was" he said quietly "I miss it when we were like that. Inseparable" that did it. The tears hit the floor like rain drops. Because I missed that too.

"Mackenzie. I miss that too" I whispered. He didn't hear me.

"Please Delilah how many times can I say sorry. I need to prove it to you. Please. Open the door" he said. My hand hovered over the doorknob. Should I let him in? I... don't know.

"Delilah" he said quietly "I love you" I knew it wasn't the love that puts us in a relationship like that but... I opened the door. He grabbed me into a hug.

"I'm sorry" he cried into my hair "please believe me" that only made me cry more.

"I do believe you" I told him as he squeezed me tighter. Jason runs in at that moment

"What's is it?" Mackenzie asked him as he took him Jason's shocked look

"I-it's Ryan" Jason cried "he's awake!"