A Little More Than Just Friends

Chapter 17: it's finally happening

Chapter 17: it's finally happening

Me and Mackenzie burst through the hospital doors.

"R-Ryan club" Mackenzie stuttered.

"Ah. We were expecting you two" the nurse smiled. She just stared at Mackenzie though. Not doing anything

"Cut the shit. Just tell us where he is" I yelled. The nurse tore her eyes away from Mackenzie and glared at me

"I'm sorry we don't allow hostiles in to see recuperating patients" she smirked. Mackenzie grabbed me before I could jump over the desk and rip her eyes out

"I'm sorry. But could you please tell us where he is? it sure would mean a lot to me" Mackenzie flirted and gave her the most amazing smile ever. I have the nurse the evil eye. How dare she.

"U-uh yes of course" she stumbled. I scoffed as we turned the corner

"Whore" I mumbled

"You really need to control your anger" Mackenzie clicked his tongue at me.

"No I just hate her" I told him angrily. We turned another corner and found Ryan's room

"Ryan" I sighed as we saw him sitting up in his bed. He blinked at us all confused like.

"Um hi" he scrunched his face up

"He's been out of it for a while. He needs to get used to it" the nurse explained and Mackenzie nodded. All I could do was stare at Ryan. I wanted to hug him so much.

"Come here" he half smiled at me and I skipped over to him and he pulled me onto the bed in the most comforting hug I've had in a while.

"I've missed you" I told him. I could tell the smile wasn't going to leave my face any time soon.

"I know. I heard you" my eyes widened at this. Had he really heard everything I said? crap

"And that reminds me. Mackenzie can I talk to you?" Ryan said letting go of me

"Uh yeah sure bud" Mackenzie said weirdly

"No. Alone" Ryan jut stared at Mackenzie.

I tried to hear what they were saying but it came out all fuzzy. Was I going death?

"Hey" Mackenzie stuck his tinge out at me, interrupting my thoughts "come back in"

"So uh... how's Joy?" Ryan asked trying not to sound too interested. But we all knew he did

"I don't know I haven't seen her in ages. I'm home schooled now" I told Ryan. He looked at me weirdly

"UH... we can call her if you want" Mackenzie interrupted before Ryan could ask questions

"Can I call her?" Ryan asked sheepishly. Me and Mackenzie smiled at each other.

"Hey baby" Ryan said into the phone and immediately screaming started. Ryan had to pull the phone away from his ear

"Yeah I know. No no Joy. Ugh just..." he gave me back my phone an rolled his eyes.

"She's on her way" he laughed. We stayed with him until Joy got there

"Ryan" she huffed as she got in the door. He smiled brightly at her

"Hey baby" he bit his lip as he slumped over to him.

"I love you" he whispered as she planted her lips on his.

"They are so cute" I told Mackenzie as we got into his new car. No. not as classy as a Cadillac. But a jeep wrangler is still pretty darn awesome.

"Yeah" he mumbled. He was obviously distracted.

"What did you and Ryan talk about?" I asked. I pretended not to care so he would tell him

"Eh" he shrugged "not much" his lack of care annoyed me. I squinted my eyes at him as he kept looking forward.

"So um... what about?" I tried again

"Look Delilah" he slammed his hands in the steering wheel "it doesn't concern you!" Ouch that hurt

"Wow. Rude." I told him. Because it was it was rude of him.

'Delilah just shut up" he wasn't joking like he usually does.

"Why. Huh? so you can just walk all over me again like Melissa does" I don't know why I got so angry but I did it was just so infuriating.

"That wasn't my fault!" he cried

"It wasn't your falsely that I almost died? hmm last time I checked it was" I instantly regretted letting that leave my mouth. He stopped the car in the middle of the street

"I-I'm sorry" I said quietly "I didn't mean that" he just banged his head in the steering wheel.

"Yes you did" he whispered. So um yes I did but still I didn't want him to know that

"You always say things that you mean and you never think about the consequences!" I could almost hear the tears coming. But I didn't care. How could he even say that! was he really saying this to me. The guy who called me athletic and a loser. Kay then fine

"Your so stupid! do you not realise that your talking about yourself?! your the reason for everything and I hate you!" I yelled as I got out of the car. I slammed his door and started walking down the footpath in the opposite direction. He didn't even say anything. He just drove away and left me there. What an ass hole!

Almost immediately it started raining. I don't know what the hell was wrong with me. I couldn't believe that I was crying. I cursed at myself for actually trusting him again. It hasn't even been two stinken days! I don't know why, but I wished that I was back in the hospital. That they could put me back to sleep. When I walked back in my house I slipped in the wooden floorboards. Jason wasn't home. I was thankful for that because I had another break down. I walked into the lounge room and threw the DVDs out of the cabinet. I tipped the couch over and threw the tv off the stand. The tv smashed and left little cuts all up my arm. Not fatal though. They only had the slightest drops of blood but stung like hell. I got out the photo albums and ripped the photos in half. Why was I doing this?! I was screaming so loud that I wouldn't be surprised if someone called the police. I was punching the floor and I felt like Alice in wonderland when she cried and the room flooded. But this was reality. In reality people lie.

Bzz bzz bzz

My phone. I looked at it. Mackenzie.

'I'm coming over' it wasn't even a question. I ignored it and pushed off from the floor and locked the door. He can't be here. I hate him. He's the problem in my life. It had to be him. If I didn't love him as much as I did none of this would have happened.

"Delilah" there was a knock on the door. He was already here. Of course he was!

"I know your there" then it dawned on me. He had a key. The lock clicked and before I could hide behind something he came into view. His jaw dropped as he took in the damage

"What is this?" he whispered. He seemed frozen. He took a step towards me

"Get. Out" I told him slowly. I couldn't even look at him.

"I know your angry but you shouldn't have done this" he emphasised this "and look at your arms!" I winced at another wave of nausea. Then the pain that followed.

"I told you to get out. I hate you." I could almost hear his heart shatter "you caused this" I looked him right in the eyes "your the reason I cut myself" if the first one didn't crush him then that one did. I could see my words spinning around and around in his head

"Now. Get. Out" he did what I said this time. I died a little on the inside when I heard his car start. I laid on my back and counted the tick of the clock

"DELILAH!" Jason screamed he shook me "are you ok? what happened? Delilah wake up" I blinked at him. Then the girl freaking out in the doorway. Then back at Jason.

"What" I croaked. He let out a sigh of relief

"What happened?" he asked sadly. I looked around. Crap! I forgot about the tantrum.

"I'm sorry" I said quickly "i was just so angry at Mackenzie" I stopped then. I'm such an idiot!

"Mackenzie! ugh why is he always the cause of this?!" Jason cried. He turned to the girl

"Look can we do thi..." Jason tried

"No no" I told him. I jumped up and interlinked their arms "ill get this place in tip top shape in no time" he tried to protest as I pushed them towards the stairs

"Nope I insist. You already do so much for me" I closed the door after I pushed them in.

I sighed as I walked back down the stairs and looked at the junk yard I call a lounge room. Before I started I washed my arms though. That started freaking me out. Then after I was done the lounge room, I couldn't stop. I went on a cleaning rampage. I was just like: oh! there's a speck of dust there. Better redo the whole room lol yolo. And I never use yolo. So what the hell.

But I knew I was doomed to be the crazy cat lady and I was cool with that. At least my cats can't emotionally kill me.