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i wish - hikaru [2]

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|| Your Point Of View ||

"Hikaru! What the hell do you think you're doing?" I hissed, pushing his shoulder, I was definitely not in the mood to talk to him.

"What do I think I'm doing? You're the one playing boyfriend and girlfriend with Kyoya, don't act innocent, princess~" Hikaru grinned, crossing his arms.

"Excuse me? Speak for yourself, your the one who has a different girl each day by his side," I laughed sarcastically, imitating him by crossing my arms as well.

"What are you trying to say, princess?"

"You go out, play with girls' hearts not even giving a single crap about them! You just want them by your side because you don't want anyone to leave you, so you stick to kissing different girls everyday to fill up that empty space in your heart, but guess what, Hikaru? You'll always be heartless, not caring for anyone but yourself, you don't care if a girl gets hurt, you just want to make yourself feel good," I finally let all my emotions out, shouting loudly, it felt quite nice.

"Oh sweetheart, you're falling for me, aren't you?" Hikaru smirked, I felt anger rise up in me again, and I slapped him, hella hard (SLAYY Y/N SLAYY).

"Wow Hikaru, I don't even know what to say, were you even listening the first time I was talking? You can kiss girls whenever you want but I can't hang out with my best friend? You're such a jerk Hikaru, grow up."

I reached to unlock the door, but Hikaru pulled my hand away, holding it in his own large hand.

"Baby, stop-"

"Why are you even doing this? Where's your Thursday Girl, hm? I'm your Friday Girl, am I right? Aren't you supposed to pretending I don't exist?" I asked, giving him a death glare.

"I'm in love with you, Y/N! Don't go, princess, please," Hikaru bursted out, I had a feeling it was all an act though.

"Stop," I gulped,

"Don't pretend to be in love with me when your not, you just don't want me to leave, because you've never had a girl leave you, because girls are always crawling all over you and I'm the first one to leave. I can't believe you."

I unlocked the door, turning the door knob and walked away, I could hear Hikaru's voice, saying something to himself, but I didn't care. I couldn't be near him, I almost broke down in front of him.

I wish that he would care for me, because sadly, I'm in love with him.

|| Hikaru's Point Of View ||

"But really, I am in love with you," I whispered to myself, holding back tears.

She doesn't believe me.

I mean, who would? I'm the player. I play with girls' feelings, I make out with a girl one day and completely ignore her the next.

Y/N's right, I don't want anyone to leave me, especially her, I have all these other girls because I knew Y/N wouldn't stay with me, she would leave. I knew it.

Because I'm a player.

I'm in love with her, but she hates my guts, she'll never feel the same, all I can do is hang out with girls to cover up my feelings.

Y/N is nothing like the other girls, she's different.

Why can't she just see it? Why can't she see I'm in love with her? The way I look at her, the way I talk to her, if Leah, my "Monday Girl" made out with some guy, I wouldn't care, but if Y/N hugs her brother, I would be jealous.

Like I said, she'll never believe me, maybe if I get rid of the other girls, she'll believe me.

No, stupid. Girls will hate her and ruin her life.

There has to be some way I can get her, some way I can show her that I'm in love with her.

It won't matter, she doesn't feel the same way.

She never will.

But I have to try, what can I do? I only have three actual friends, how can I get them to help? Would they even help me?

Think, think, think.

Oh shit, I'm gonna be late for class.

I rushed to my classroom, Y/N still in my mind.

If only you understood Y/N, if only you saw that I look at you differently than the other girls.

If only you believed me.

XXX