Won't Let You Go (Jai Waetford)~

Depression

Here it is pouring with rain and I'm just sitting on Jais fence to his house. Alana is with Jai so the house is deserted. I should be cold I should be shivering but I had no feeling, just numbness.

"Beaunka"

"What Trent?" I snapped quietly

"Why do you hate me?"

I snapped my head around to stare at him in slight disbelief. He came and sat on the fence next to me.

"I don't hate you" I stated

"Well why do you ignore me!" He exclaimed "ever since that small thing in the classroom, what was that you just got up and walked away"

"I'm sorry" I whispered only just audible through the now thundering skies

"Bee what's going on?" he asked worried

"Nothing"

"Bee we both know that's not true" he said easily "why are you at Jais house, in the rain?"

"I broke up with him"

"Why?"

I pulled the now saturated magazine from under my shirt and shoved it into his hands and looked away back to the house.

"Bee I've known Jai for ages and I know he would not cheat on you" he stated

"Well he's not cheating on me cause we aren't together" I snapped letting some tears till down my check mingling with the heavy drops of rain

"So why are you ignoring me?" he asked coming off the Jai subject

I was quite for a few minutes listening to the thunder and the rain falling on the tin roofs.

"Why do you hate me" he demanded quietly

"I don't fucking hate you!" I screamed at him

"Well what the fucks going on then?" he screamed back

"I... I can't tell you"

"This fucks me off Bee your open them you've started closing up on me"

"I don't hate you" I huffed

"What is it then"

"It's something much more then hate" I stated not looking to him "it's so much more powerful"

"What do you mean?" he asked confused

"I can't tell you" I said sadly

I slid off the fence and set of back home with the rain being my only company.

Once I arrived home dad was sitting in the kitchen waiting, for what smelt like, bacon and eggs with some toast.

"There you are" he smiled but was then faulted when he saw my saturated clothes and body

"Yeah I'm just ah going for a shower" I murmured

I walked straight up to my bedroom and into the shower. Peeling off my clothes and throwing them into a corner and taking a mental note to throw them into the wash after my shower.

I let the pure hot water wash over my numb body still making no feel to it. My thoughts kept traveling back to Jai and then Trent and back to Jai. I didn't really want to break up with Jai but I had no choice like he was cheating on me. And then Trent, I do believe I have feelings for him, which annoys me greatly cause I know I love Jai.

The hot water went cold very quickly making me flick the taps of faster then a rabbit could run, I guess I have my feeling back in my body.

"Sorry bee it's been like fifteen minutes I had to" Dad called from behind the door