Biker Boy Gunnar ✔️

Thirteen

      I'm not ready to go home yet. I know he will be waiting for me, with chocolate cupcakes and a can of barbecue Pringles. Which he knows is my favorite because I can't resist eating chocolate with chips specifically Pringles. He'll apologize in his own demented way, claiming how it's my fault that he got so angry. Axel made a good point, it's not my fault. I am not the goddess Lyssa I cannot control someone else anger.

     Speaking of Axel, he was starting to become an important person in my life. I couldn't help but feel this undying attraction towards him. The attraction isn't just because of his physical appearance it's the way he makes me feel. It's surreal I feel as if I'm floating on cloud nine whenever I'm around him. There is this engrossing yearn that spreads throughout my body begging—no—pleading with me to do anything in my power to be able to touch him.

      He has the correct amount of balance, he's serious but at the same time he's able to battle my humor. He's laid back while I'm impatient and always ready for the next adventure. Whenever we're around one another we always find some excuse to touch one another. Whether we're holding hands, cuddling or simply laying our head on the others lap or shoulder there is just this pull. The pull refuses to be unacknowledged, so we fade into one another seeking the warmth and comfort the other provides.

I don't know when our acquaintance status with from one night stand to friendship to whatever we are now. What are we? We're not in a relationship because neither one of us has asked the other to be his or her boyfriend or girlfriend. Am I even ready for a new boyfriend? Jensen refuses to accept the fact that it's over. It has been over for months when I first broke up with him after finding out I no longer loved him. Right now I have to much baggage and Axel and I have secrets we've yet to discuss with one another.

Yes, I told him about Jensen violence towards me but there is so much more he doesn't know. Would he still want to be in my life if I told him my grandfather started a biker club called Sons of Morrow and my dad twisted the club legitimacy to make it into something others fear? Would he still want to hold my hands or play with ends of hair if he knew I had a killers blood pumping through my veins? He can't be all innocent because he's still hasn't given me the real reason why he has loads of money under his bathroom sink. I realize he's not a Kingpin or a Cartel boss but what other reason is there?

       I have tried to think of legitimate reasons why he had all that money. Maybe he distrust banks? The only problem with that theory is how did he get all that money. Maybe it's his inheritance? If I go with that speculation then I have to wonder who his parents are—was—since he was adopted. None of those could be true because he told me he move money his criminal clients. My mind was running in circles and I was beginning to get dizzier than a person sitting in a desktop chair being spun numerous times.

I was stuck between a rock and a hard place. I couldn't tell my brother about my issues with Jensen because I don't want to be responsible for Jensen's death. My brother is a shoot first ask questions later type of guy. Then when Jensen's crew of boxers find out something happened to their top money maker they'll come after Bash and I. Jensen has friends in high places do to his dad being a dirty FBI Agent. That means he actually knows Kingpins, Cartel leaders, Russian Mob Bosses and not to mention the Federal Government. To kill Jensen would be like killing yourself so in order for me to get away from him my plan would have to be carefully carried out. Of course I'd have to come up with a plan first...

"What are you thinking about?" Sawyer questioned.

       Last night Axel had offered to let me crash at his house but I denied and asked him to drop me off at Sawyer house. Her blonde hair was pulled back into a ponytail as she laced her running shoes. See Sawyer wants to join the Marines so she has been trying to get in shape before she gets her ship date. Rome—Sawyers girlfriend— and I have tried to get Sawyer to change her mind about going into the military but she says she wants to be apart of something bigger than herself.