Blame It (Of Mice & Men)

Heartbreak IHOP

I woke up the next morning to a moving bus and an arm draped over my waist. I looked over my shoulder and saw Alan sleeping, soft snores coming out as he exhaled. I smiled, until I remembered what a jerk he was yesterday. I carefully lifted his arm from my hip and climbed off the bed before grabbing a hair band and pulling my curly hair into a messy bun. I threw on some pajama pants and walked into the lounge where Tino was playing his video games. As usual.

"Valentino, do you do anything else besides play video games?" I asked, sitting down on the couch and bringing a knee to my chin.

"Arianna do you do anything else besides complain about my video games?" Tino mocked, pausing the game.

"Arianna is my middle name, though," I said, smiling at my brother. He chuckled and stood, joining me on the couch.

"So what's the matter?" he asked, putting an arm around my shoulders and pulling me in close. "Alan was being jealous yesterday and although I wasn't even flirting, he got pissed and started flirting with these two fans and so I got angry and came back here. If he's gonna be like this all tour I don't know what I'm going to do." I said, burying my face in Tino's shoulder.

He rubbed my arm and held me for a second before sighing. "April, you're my sister and I love you more than anything in the world. I don't want to see you bummed out. Just ignore it. Alan's just...hard-headed. He'll get over it that a lot of our male fans think you're attractive."

I smiled and hugged my brother. "Thank you, Tino. You're the best." He kissed the top of my head before letting me go and plopping back onto the bean bag chair in the floor. "Now, Ur Boi has to kill some motherfuckers."

Eventually, all of the guys woke up and the 'living room' was filled with moans of "I'm huuunngggrryyyy!" Mike found an IHOP a little ways down the road and pulled in. We all changed clothes before climbing off the bus and walking into the packed place.

We ordered drinks and Alan put his arm on the back of my seat. I pushed a curl from my face and sipped my orange juice. "Can I talk to you outside for a minute?" Alan whispered in my ear. I nodded and he stood, pushing his chair under the table as I did the same. "Tell our waitress I want chicken tenders, please, Valentino." he nodded and I walked out behind Alan.

"So what's going on? Why are you giving me the cold shoulder today?" he asked, pulling a pack of cigarettes from his pocket and lighting one between his teeth. He smelled like weed already and I honestly was getting aggravated just by that. I mean, I'd smoked with Alan plenty of times. But that showed me he went out and partied last night without even inviting me. "You're kidding, right?" I asked.

"April I seriously do not understand why you're being a bitch." My eyes widened. "Me?! Alan, you're the one flirting with under aged girls and partying all night when you have a girlfriend!" I yelled, throwing my hands in the air. "Or do I?" He asked, pulling the cigarette from between his teeth, the smoke coming out with each word. I looked at him in shock. "What?" I asked. Alan and I had been together for two years. He couldn't just suddenly throw me out like that, could he?

"Maybe we should just stop this, April. We fight all the time and I have the band..." He trailed off and tears brimmed my eyes. I was suddenly not hungry anymore. I looked at the ground and my body trembled as he flicked the cigarette butt onto the ground and quietly said, "I'm done," before walking back into the IHOP.

I jogged to the bus before climbing inside and going straight to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror and let out sobs I'd been holding in. I bent down and reached to the back of the cabinet where I grabbed what I was looking for.

The two positive pregnancy tests I was going to tell Alan about after the show today.