Daughter of a Lannister

|Oh My Bloody God|

******(Sansa's POV)*****

I kept tossing and turning in bed, I couldn't get a good night's rest without that day, coming to hunt me.

I could hear myself in my dream, crying for help, and three to four men pinning me down.

Once of them leaned down, grabbing my flat ass, and whisper something in my ear that made me even more scared.

"You ever been fucked before?"

Than, the other man pulled out a dragged, it glinted in the dark light.

I felt like I was an animal about to slaughter for dinner.

Than he aimed at my belly and I let out a scream, that woke me up from my dream.

I felt a slight pain in my stomach and I looked down at my legs to see a red stain, oh no! I thought.

I got off the bed and realized, that I had flowered. This is bad, this is really bad, I have to hide it for as long as I can.

I got up and grabbed a butter knife and began to cut away the bloody parts of the bed.

My handmaid, Shae came in, and I gave her a worried face, she walked over to me and took away the knife.

"It's alright." she told me.

"No...if the queen sees...I can have Joffery's children now." I told her and fear was in my voice.
She soon realized it. "Help me flip it over."

We began to lift up the bed and soon another handmaid walks in, she saw Shae than me, than her eyes darted on the blood. She left the room, Shae went after her.

But before Shae could return back to me, the Hound, already beat her to it, and I started to cried. I'm so done now.

I was taken to see Cersei in her chambers. She told me, I had flowered, and I became a women.

And now I'm fit to bear children for the king. She told me it's the greatest honor for a queen, to bring little princes and princesses into the world.

Yet, I asked her if I should live Joffery, and she warn me that he'll show me no admiration. She told me to just only love my children and nobody else.

I went back to my chambers and Shae was there to comfort me, yet I won't be safe around Joffery anymore.

Now that he's going to know that I've just flowered, he's going to rape...I hope not...I just want to go to go home now.

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Around the mid afternoon, I been noticing that Sansa, was trying not to cringed at everything.

She's been also holding her stomach like she's in pain...than I realized that she just flowered. And I haven't.

I felt very embarrassed by this, I'm just in my twenties. And I'm still a "girl" and not a "women." I decided to skip dinner, and went out for a ride into the forest.

I rode until the day light turn into the hour of the wolf, once I came back, I fell asleep.

But as quickly as I felt asleep, I was woken up by the pain in my lower stomach and back. I clamped my hand on my stomach.

I ranged a bell, and one of my handmaids enter the room, I asked for her to summoned my sister.

I waited for Cersei, and I looked down at myself, to see a stain on my dress between my legs. My hands were slightly bloody, and I was crying.

When the chamber door open, Cersei came in, she was wearing a large wrap around her shoulders. She's still awake at this hour? I sat up, and she spoke up.

"Something the matter?" she asked.
I wipe my tears away. "...yes..."
"Why are you crying?"

"I'm in pain...I just flowered." I whisper quietly.
"What?"
"Flowered..." I said meekly.

"Just tell me." I heard annoyance in her voice.
"I'll just show you." I whisper.

I got up, and her eyes were lingering on my bloody hands, and the blood stains between my legs.

I sank to the floor and broke down into silent tears, Cersei went to sat down on the bed, and help me up.

She also saw another stain on the bed which I didn't notice until now.  She grabbed a bowl of water and help me clean my hands.

She may seem like a bitch, but she's actually a nice person to me, and her children, also Jaime as well.

"Did you just flowered?" she asked me.
I nod in response. "I'm embarrassed."

"Amelia, you've been flowering since you were thirteen."

"No, that was wine, I pretended to flowered, this is real."

She got up and gave me her wrap, and escorted me to her room, where I changed into one of her night undergarments.

And she told me I can sleep in her room tonight, she looked at me.

"You have nothing to be embarrassed by dear sister, your secret is safe, just as you kept mine."

"Thank you,"
"Anything for my favorite sister."

"When will the wedding be?"

"After we defeat Stannis, your wedding will take place."

"...oh.."
"Are you okay with being forced to married someone you don't know?"

"Yeah...I guess...." I lied through my teeth.
"I hate to see you this down."

"Well, we can't live the lives we want, we can't have the ones we love,"

"Who do you love?" she raised an eyebrow.
"You know who." I gave a sly smile.

She smile. "Oh, him, yes...he was very handsome."
"But he married an ugly bitch."
"Yes, yes he did."
"You were 16, when father offered you to him."

"Yes, and even though it was a political marriage, I was refused by the former king. Than father, was about to offer you, but decided not to."

"I was only 12, though, that's four years apart."
"Yes, but you've died just to have him."
"You as well."

We looked at each other and let out a quiet laugh. I could imagined what my father would've thought if I married him and became the new Queen of Westeros.

I would flip, Cersei and I both loved him, we would bear him so many children, just to make him happy.

But, sadly, we both were sent to our unhappiness, and terrible places to live in. Cersei was sold out to Robert, while my father waited until I was 16, to offer me to the North.

Nether of our marriages made us happy, my mother in law hated me, Cersei's husband was a drunken fool with twenty bastards. And mine is...I don't know. I sigh and fell asleep.