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Chapter 20- Back At It

Janet

Today is a new day and I have to go back home tomorrow. I haven't had a chance to get Lisa and Toni to talk,their both being stubborn. Toni went to the store with CJ, I let her use my car. Lisa said she'll be over here in a couple of hours so I've just been laying down with Amaru to pass time. I was watching Cinderella while he laid on me kissing my stomach. That's all he's been doing since yesterday.

"What do you think we having?" He finally stopped kissing my stomach to look at me.

"I know it's a boy but Toni swears up and down its a girl just because CJ  likes to be under me."

"I've noticed that,whenever you hold him he gets happy as hell.He's cried a couple times but that's it."

"Honestly I don't care what we have,all I know is I'm gonna love him/her more than anything."

"You so beautiful. Just the way you light up talking about our baby and your face already glows on a daily basis. I don't know what made me want to miss out on this."

"It wasn't your fault,I made you miss out on this when I decided not to tell you. I'm sorry." 

I don't know why but I've always felt guilty for waiting so long to tell him about the pregnancy.

"Don't do that,don't try to put the blame on you. I did a lot of wrong too and I own up to that but things are different now. We're not starting over but we starting a new.

"Can I ask you something,and I want you to answer honestly."

"Go head"

"If I wasn't pregnant would we be here right now."

He gave me a look I was all too familiar with, which let me know he was irritated.

"Jay,come on I just said we starting a new and if I didn't want to be with you I wouldn't. When we broke up, I was thinking about you everyday before I knew you was pregnant and even more after. I worried about you and thought about my baby all the time. I fell for you but you getting pregnant just made me fall even further."

I couldn't help but blush, he always knows what to say.

"Aww gimme kiss big head." He pushed my face away.

"I know you not talking about big heads,not with that big ass dome you got." I laughed because he thought he was funny.

"Whatever,you ugly anyway. I hope my child don't look like you."

"Girl please every nigga you ever fucked with wish they looked like me."

"I don't know who told you such a lie."

"So why you with me and not one of those niggas."

"Cause you only good for one thing,and it just happens to be the one thing I like the most."

He sat up so I could lay on his chest. He kissed my forehead right before I snuggled into him more. I grew tired out of nowhere.

"Aye, you going to sleep pretty girl?"
I nodded my head, and closed my eyes.

"Alright I'm gonna let you sleep."

He tried to get up but I held him tighter.  "No lay with me,please"

He got comfortable again and I laid on top of him to make sure he wouldn't go anywhere. Eventually I went off to sleep.

Lisa

Wassup y'all it's been a minute but I got a lot of shit on plate. I've been going through a lot of things, for starters I'm thinking about breaking up with Toni. It's not that I don't love her but she has a lot on her plate with the baby so she doesn't need anymore stress. Ever since Janet moved I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to. Now she's pregnant so I don't want to be telling her my situation either. The truth is me and my momma been arguing like crazy and she kicked me out last week. I have nowhere to go,Toni momma don't even want me around and Janet lives too damn far. I dont know what to do so for now I've been staying in a homeless shelter until I figure out a plan. The only thing I have left is my car.