Blackout • NH

Chapter 33

Previously

My heart dropped. I looked at the next pregnancy test and it had one line showing. My heart is racing a mile a minute. I look at the last test that my hand is covering. I slowly lift my hand up and look at the results.

Present

I look down at the test. Two lines.

I drop to the floor, dropping the tests and making a huge bang against the wall, sliding down it.

I put my head in my hands and cry.

"Jodie?"

I look up and see Niall looking down at me, worried and upset that I'm sad.

"Niall please go back into the room." I say, letting the tears roll down my cheeks.

"Baby I'm not gonna let you sit here like this and be hurt."

He walks in and sits next to me. Putting an arm around my shoulders and bringing me to him. I cry even harder into his chest and then try to pull away.

"Baby, what's the matter?" He says more sternly but still gently.

I look at him and look down to the floor. Niall looks at the floor and sees the tests and the boxes scattered about. He picks up one of the tests and looks at it.

He doesn't say anything at first. The silence around us was very scary and stressful.

"Jodie. What..." He whispers.

"Niall, I'm pregnant." I get up, leaving him on the floor.

"That's why I've been sick. Remember the night before I got taken? This is the result of that." I walk out, leaving him alone in the bathroom. I walk out the room leaving Marion standing there baffled and I head outside of the hotel and walk through the thick tropical brush and head to the beach. Alone.

I get to the beach and sit among the rocks, not caring if I'm seen by anyone or not. I stare out at the horizon, thinking about everything.

This baby will set us all back on the chance of survival. It would be a lot harder to sneak around because the baby could cry and attach a glazer or a group of people that could be dangerous. Why did me and Niall have to put the group in danger like this? The baby has every right to survive just like the rest of us. But I can't let this become an inconvenience for the group.

I pull my head into my knees and just break down. Crying loudly and not caring if I'm putting myself at risk. I think and think of a way to fix this. Then suddenly, I get an idea. Tonight when everyone is asleep. I'm going to leave. It's best for the group. I'm immune so I don't have to worry about glazers, just other survivors.

I get up and wipe the dirt from my pants and head back to the abandoned hotel.

Liam, Harry, Aiden and Ellen are still out fishing so I don't have to worry about to much drama when I go inside.

Ellen. I have to tell her. She deserves to know. I begin to cry again, making my way to the doors and walking up the stairs. I make it to my room to see Marion and Niall in there, mostly talking about me and this whole fucking situation. I clear my throat and they look at me.

"I just want to be alone right now, can I have my room back?" I say, looking down at my feet and wiping the tears from my face.

Marion obeys and walks out, but not before putting a hand on my shoulder and gently rubbing it as a sign not to worry. Niall is still standing there looking at me. He makes his way over to me and tries to speak.

"Jodie..."

"Niall, now is not the time, just let me be alone for the night."

"I'm not going to leave you alone Jodie." He says sternly.