Douchette // l.h

twelve.

Everything around me was silent besides the quiet mumbling of Luke. I pushed myself further into the comforts of Luke's bed, inhaling his signature scent.

"No you can't come pick her up asshole." I heard Luke snap in a hushed tone. My eyes fluttered open to the dimly lit room.

"Luke who are you talking to?" I can see my phone pressed to Luke's ear. It took me moments to realize that it was Calum. Luke hung up without another word, the sour expression never leaving his face.

"I'm sorry, he kept calling." Luke handed over my phone. I could see the line of missed calls by Calum, Samantha, and my mom. What was I supposed to tell my mom? Calum was staying with us, what was I supposed to do now?

I pulled Luke's covers over me more so that it was tucked underneath my chin. There was an awkward tension - or at least to me - in the room. My phone buzzed in my hand. It was a text from Calum.

calum 10:52 PM - please call me. i can explain

There was another buzz.

calum 10:53 PM - i dont want to lose you. i love you

"Nicole?" I didn't dare to look up to meet Luke's worried gaze.

"Can I borrow a shirt and some shorts maybe?" I asked embarrassingly. It was awkward to ask Luke that. I almost thought he would laugh and joke about it. My clothes were still damp from the downpour from earlier. It felt irritating against my skin. I must've only been asleep for an hour or two.

"Yeah," Luke got up from his spot on the bed and made his way over to a dark wooden dresser. He pulled open the top drawer and grabbed a black t-shirt along with some black basketball shorts.

I took the clothes from Luke, my fingertips brushing against his. I could feel my face getting hot. Why is this so awkward?

"Do you... um... have a bathroom?"

"Well I kinda snuck you in here and I'm afraid my mom will see you if I take out in the hall to the bathroom." Luke nervously laughed, scratching the back of his neck. "I'll just turn around."

Luke turned around, awkwardly shuffling around. I could feel my face flush even more. He wanted me to change in his room... with him in here. I mean of course he's not looking or anything, but just the thought of changing in the same room. I crawled off the small bed, the mattress making small creaks.

I grabbed the bottom of my shirt, slowly peeling the long sleeved black crop top off. I dropped the shirt onto the floor. My hands were shaky as they reached for the button on my jeans. What's wrong with me? I pulled the jeans off as quickly as possible. I grabbed Luke's shirt that I left on the bed and pulled it over my head, flipping my hair out. I then swiftly pulled up the black shorts only to have them fall back down my thighs. I held the shorts up, my cheeks flushing once more.

"Um Luke?" He slowly turned around his gaze falling onto me. I could feel his eyes raking down my body. "Your shorts are too big."

His laugh filled the small room, echoing off the walls. He covered his mouth.

"It's not funny." I continued holding up the shorts.

"Do you really need to have shorts on?"

"Excuse me?" My eyes widened and I clutched onto the shorts even tighter.

"Oh god, I didn't mean it like that! I just meant that - well since the shirt is so big on you, it covers your legs." Luke's face was a slight pink. I looked down to see that in fact he was right.

"Yeah I guess." Luke seemed surprised by my answer. I slowly let the shorts fall to my ankles and stepped out of them. I clutched the bottom of the shirt, tugging it down more. "Quit staring at me." I looked away. By now my cheeks were probably the color of a tomato.

"Sorry." Luke fidgeted around. "I can sleep on the floor." Luke reached over onto the bed to grab a pillow, but I snatched it out of his hand.

"Don't be silly. This is your bed. Can't we just sleep next to each other without a big fuss?" It was my turn to start fidgeting with my fingers.

"You wouldn't mind?" I slowly looked up to meet Luke's stare. His lip ring was pulled between his teeth. I shook my head and crawled onto the bed and under the covers. "Can I take my shirt off? I always sleep with it off."

"Sure." I could feel my heart pulsing in my ears. What's wrong with me? Why am I feeling like this? I wanted to shake off this nervousness and uneasy feeling.

Luke grabbed behind his head, pulling his shirt off. I could feel the imaginary drool falling from my mouth. Why the hell do guys pull off their shirts in such a seductive way? The shirt fell out of his hand and he looked up at me. Luke crawled under the covers beside me.

There was little space between us, our faces a couple of inches apart. The heat was radiating between our bodies.

"Luke? Are you gonna turn the light off?" I chuckled in hopes of lessening the tension between us. Luke said nothing and, in one quick motion, held my face between his hands and pressed his lips against mine. I could feel my eyes practically bulging out of my skull. Luke slightly pulled away.

"Don't keep your lips shut so tightly." Luke breathed out.

"What?" I asked utterly confused. Was Luke trying to teach me how to kiss? I knew how to do that.

"You're so innocent." Luke smirked.

"If you're going to make fun of me, I don't want to do this with you." I looked away, frustrated.

"Nicole," he pulled my chin up to capture my lips once again. I squeezed my eyes shut, my heart thumping so loudly I'm sure Luke could hear. I could feel Luke's tongue penetrate my mouth, our tongues clashing against one another.

Luke's hand grabbed ahold of my hips, rolling to hover over me. I could feel my hands trembling as I grabbed his shoulders, the pad of my fingers digging slightly in the skin. I pulled back from the kiss, gasping for breath. Luke took this opportunity to kiss the side of my neck. His hand began pushing up my shirt, my stomach being exposed.

I felt my nerves kick in and I became scared of these emotions. I stopped Luke's hand. His actions halted and he looked down on me. Worry and confusion sparkled in his baby blue eyes.

"I can't." Luke seemed disappointed, but began pulling away. I pulled him back to me, hugging his chest. "Will you wait... 'till I'm ready?"

"Of course love."

a/n: haven't updated in awhile. been busy with school. hope this lame chapter makes up for it xx