Show me love ◀Stucky▶

Chapter 4 : Alone

It was the first night that Bucky went to bed alone.

Bucky did without dinner that day and tried to watch tv or read a book but everything was boring. He needed Steve. Steve was the only person Bucky enjoyed at this moment but he still felt too guilty to knock on Steves door.

He shut down the tv and leaned back on the couch. He let out a heavy breath and decided to brush his teeth, shower and get ready for bed.

He saw himself in the mirror while he brushed his teeth. He looked better every passing day. Despite the wild hair and beard he looked ok. Bucky took off his blue shirt which he borrowed from Steve and watched his chest. He liked everything but his metal arm. He hated it. One look at it and memoies came back. Bad ones. Really bad ones.

"No! I didn't do anything wrong!" The man winced but couldn't get away because Bucky held him down.

"Please!" He shouted and Bucky punched him in the face. Again. Again. Again.

Bucky shook hia head and tried to forget it. He got out of his jeans which he also borrowed from Steve. Actually everything he had was from Steve. His shirts, his shoes, his trousers and even his underwear. Bucky didn't know if the thought that Steve once wore these boxers should turn him on, but it did. He finished brushing his teeth and got out of the bathroom. He stopped at Steves office to hear something. He made out a quiet voice speaking. Perhaps Steve was on the phone, talking to a friend or something. Bucky just hoped that Steves mind brightened up and he would be able to forget the conversation about the shitty meeting.

Bucky decided to sleep in nothing but boxers this night because it was too hot in here for more clothes to sleep in. Also he liked to wrap himself up into the warm sheets and cuddle with Steve.. if Steve would be here. Bucky lay down on the bad and grunted. What was he? A baby? He could go to sleep without Steve!

After a few minutes Bucky realized that he never felt lonely when Steve was around. Well.. now he felt lonely and kind of lost. It was Steves apartment and they lived here together but still, Bucky needed Steve laying next to him. "So you are a baby." Bucky murmured and turned to the side.

It was horrible to be in the big bed without his Steve. Steve was angry on him and he had every right to be because Bucky annoyed him. Bucky knew it was wrong to ask Steve about it. But Bucky had to admit that it made him curious why Steve acted like this about the meeting with Natasha. Maybe it was about him. Steve told him that the Avengers accepted him - everybody except Natasha. Even Tony knew that Bucky was a different person back then when he.. killed Tonys parents and tried to act normal around him.

Bucky just wanted to forget the whole conversation and ask Steve if he'd lay next to him. He wanted the warm body of Steve to protect him and put his arms around him but Steve don't wanted to talk to him. Sadly.

"You will wait here until we want you. Then and only then you are allowed to go out of the cell and follow our orders." the doctor said as the guards pushed Bucky into the cell.

"Do you understand me soldier?" The doctor shouted and turned off the light.
"I understand, doctor." He answered monotone and stood still.

The doctor and his guards walked away and left Bucky alone in the darkness.

Bucky walked across the small room or cell, whatever this was and looked around him.

The room was empty. There was no bed to sleep, no window to see the sun rise and know when it's night and when it's day - nothing.

The room made him cry. To be surrounded by nothing made Bucky panic and fall to the ground.