Delivery Boy / vkook

二十一

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it's a month later, articles of jeongguk's father's death are out of relevance. it was no fair to jeongguk and his mom that it was popular news for a day and it's forgotten hours after.

it was just unfair when time completely stopped for the two of them and yet, the world just kept spinning. spinning, jeongguk's head was spinning with disbelief that his father was gone. he passed by his house, the lights were closed; it was painfully vacant.

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"all you do is sit around and mope! i'm trying my hardest to get you to be happy but you refuse. sometimes i just want to quit; my morale is so low, jeongguk." taehyung yells as jeongguk walks through the hall and into the living room.

"would you just let me make myself happy!? this is what i want to do. i hate myself for putting an anchor on the top of my dad's back and this is what i get a month after his funeral?" jeongguk yells in return, tears pricking at the end of his eyes.

"it's all about you, huh? is it? i promised myself i would spend most of my money for you! at this point, i started to believe money buys happiness." taehyung croaks, tears trickling down the side of his face as he quickly wipes them off.

"you think i'm not hurting, either? you think so? fucking hell, it should've been me. it should've been me." jeongguk said, tears full of pain were streaming down his cheeks as he ran his fingers through his hair. he was stressed when being yelled at and it hurt when he hears taehyung's agonized tone.

"i wish you'd realize that you keep putting stress upon yourself. why are you hurting, huh? is it because you think too much about shit that happens? listen, jeongguk, shit happens. i know you can't forget but can't you mend yourself properly? can't you?" taehyung approaches jeongguk and takes his shoulders, forcing eye contact.

jeongguk starts to bawl as taehyung takes him in his arms. "i hate myself, taehyung and i'm so fucking sorry. i swear i am, i swear." he whispers the last phrase, low enough for taehyung to hear but no one else.

"you shouldn't hate yourself, i swear you shouldn't."

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A/N: im so bad with arguments but i needed something to write to get myself back into the 'groove'