Delivery Boy / vkook

二十二

Lonely Animals - Mad Clown, San E ft. Brother Su

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after his fight with taehyung, jeongguk got increasingly busy throughout the rest of the month. hours on end, he would practice until his muscles gave out or went to photoshoots with bagged eyes which were covered up by makeup, sang until his vocal cords were worn out, wrote song lyrics until his wrist gave in, et cetera.

sometimes he worked so much that he barely got to greet taehyung with a proper "hello" and "how are you?"

the greeting "are you doing well?" turned into "are you perhaps busy right now?"

jeongguk worked so much that fans made sure he was doing okay through his fancafe or his twitter. even during fansigns he looked tired.

at the end of jeongguk's busy day, he would lay in bed and think of what it would be like if taehyung was beside him instead of the cold bedsheets. of course, he couldn't abandon his own home, neither could he suddenly ask taehyung to move in with him. even if he did, the news would spread within his fanbase.

these days i lay all alone in bed
after a really busy day
i tend to exchange the emptiness waiting in line
for miscellaneous thoughts
i used to ask
when am i gonna use math or social studies?
but when i grew up i saw the world is all politics
and the checkout counter where you put them
more than from the noise of wheels rolling in my ears
i get goosebumps
from the sound of people in front of me using their brains

my friend who looked at me looking at myself
looking at me resembling the adult faces
who hated it like that
where's the thing that can see that

jeongguk gets confused and couldn't think sometimes. he didn't know whether looking at something seriously meant it was comfort or irony.

but now he understood that looking at things seriously only brought people to take advantage of that sincerity's weakness.

i can't even think
even though i don't know whether it's comfort or irony
i know this one thing
try not to look at it seriously
somone will take advantage of that sincerity's weakness
i'm serious playing hide and seek, i'm it
that game is lonely and boring
because you hid so so well
even in my dreams i can't find you

on days he had a small break, taehyung couldn't bare a conversation about jeongguk's work. he didn't want to talk about his business and things in relation. he only wanted them to talk about their well being and how life is going for them.

let's talk about you
and talk about me
don't talk about work, talk about your life
the sky is so blue
you went up with the tide

and when they talked about things like work, they both felt lonely anyway. it wasn't as if they were talking about themselves but only what they did. it became boring and it brought silence to their conversations.

but
why do i feel so
alone alone alone, helpless
alone alone alone, we are
it looks like we're lonely lonely animals
it looks like we're lonely lonely animals
so lonely
give me loneliness, come and seize it
so boring
want to acknowledge a boring show, applause

while jeongguk was practically glued to work, taehyung often looked at the sky. whether it was night or day, he stared and reached for it sometimes.

as he stares at the stars for a longer period, his thoughts increased and he realizes that a painful feeling of loneliness rose from a dark and deep place from his stomach.

these days for some reason
i often look at the sky
i stretch my hands and slightly catch the stars
at dawn when everyone's asleep i silently put glittering stars
in my shabby shoe rack
loneliness rose from a deep place in my stomach
when i didn't have a home
i remember
back then i was unreliable,
i wastefully shed loneliness and promised not to go

when jeongguk looked to the stars, he thought of the times when his mother used to wish reality would unfold and her small son would still be sitting on the couch and watched whatever played on tv. however, both her and her beloved son realize that life isn't scripted like a tv show.

mom hoped reality unfolded
and dad didn't change the abnormalities
life isn't scripted
i often try to live like i'm in a movie
i chased a dream, i think i was really upset
i'm on a worn hamster wheel stuck to a padlock
loneliness is the little cardboard i write on
i scribble my dreams with my crooked handwriting

we're just lonely animals
i know you and i are exactly the same
underneath the city lights that devour the stars
today of all days
the alcohol is so sweet, it means i wrote
that much about our day
when i open my eyes, it's the same day
today too happiness shows itself
without change in this city, in figures
similar hope, similar eyes, similar dreams
lonely animals who don't know how to love

let's talk about you
and talk about me
don't talk about work, talk about your life
the sky is so blue
you went up with the tide but
why do i feel so
alone alone alone, helpless
alone alone alone, we are
it looks like we're lonely lonely animals
it looks like we're lonely lonely animals

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A/N: i enjoyed writing this a lot ^^

OH! i almost forgot ahaha i found english translations for this song on tumblr @/kor-translations